Random Nothingness

Nothingness. Loss. Writer's block. Forgetfulness...


Are these words similar to each other? To what degree?

I'm feeling a bit down lately in my mind's system. This is not emotionally, since I've been so cheery ever since Mirumo de Pon!'s 4th Season has yet again been aired to Philippine television, thanks to Hero TV (Sky Cable channel 44). Still, I can't help but become at a loss of ideas in my mind. I encountered forgetfulness, yet there are certain lines that were built while I was spending spare time looking at the ceiling's nothingness. Is this what they call the "writer's block"?

Setting aside that, things in Mirumo de Pon! are getting better for Katie and Dylan, yet are about to get complicated. It's the big irony. I've always, always, always imagined my life to become like hers. What an inevitable fantasy, still fantasizing... waiting... and waiting for me to have someone like Dylan. It's OBVIOUSLY elusive. Seen in Mirumo de Pon!'s story is all about love in many, different ways.

Love is such a banal thing for me. Everyone shows affection, but it blatantly shows that not everyone gets affection in return. Why does opportunity to be happy not for everyone?

I wonder what the logic behind everything in this world is...

Have you ever felt that you suddenly lost affection for someone?


No more happy feelings with simple thoughts of that person, no more smiles by the mere mentioning of his name. If there is such a feeling, can you force to experience this kind of feeling for someone you want to forget?

There are people you want and you feel more than want. Someone from your past that you still want. Years and years have passed, still, you actually LOVE the same person. You started to forget, to run away. You encounter someone else, still it has no effect. You can't seem to erase everything.

But the worst part is, HE HAS NOT YET entered your life. He's a mere person, not a stranger. You know him, he knows you. You secretly want to share something with him, the best things in life you can imagine.

Only if you can talk to him, if only, only he could hear your voice.

Sadly, the sarcasm of life remains. You have nowhere to run. If a new door opens, you hastily come in, but still, those feelings you found cannot compensate nor surpass every single feeling you want to leave behind. You don't want to hurt the person who shows you affection.

Is there any way you can get through?

Mirumo de Pon Season 4 COUNTDOWN!

ミル。。。ミル。。。ミルモでポン！

Haay eto nanaman ang excitement level ko, tumataas to the highest peak! Grabe, after watching a load of AMV's, medyo nagka-hint na ako on what's going to happen on Mirumo de Pon! Season 4. Although kailangang kailangan ko na ng SPOILERS, wala naman akong makuhanan. I tried Yahoo! Answers, but so far no one had answer my question.

Oh well, basing from the scenes on the AMV's, I guess na 100 % Setsu and Kaede nga. Me vids pa ngang "First Kiss" nila e. Haaaaay.... ngapala, tomorrow na daw end/finale ng Pangarap na Bituin. Aus din yon... pero MIRUMO PARIN!

Hontou no Kimochi (My True Feelings)

日本モード:

私はとても孤独今である。罪があり、無感覚。私は信頼に何をすればいいか知らない。私は実際に自分自身を知らない。

私はなぜ前にと異なっている感じるか。幸せがある理由の多くがあるけれども私はこの孤独に残る。

私はそれに耐えることができない。それは私を... 傷つける

 

한국 형태:

나는 이렇게 고독하다 지금. 유죄와 마비되는. 나는
신망에 무엇을 하기 위하여 모른다. 나는 조차
진짜로 모른다.

나는 왜 전에보다는 다른가 느끼는가? 행복한
있는 이유의 제비 있는다 그러나 나는 이 고독안에 남아
있는다.

나는 그것을 품을. 그것은 나를... 낙상한다

 

中国方式:

我现在是很孤独的。有罪和麻木。我不知道什么做, 对信任。我真正地甚而不认识自己。

为什么我感到不同比以前? 有许多原因愉快我保留在这孑然。

أسلوب [أربيك]
:

أنا هكذا وحيدة حاليّا. مذنبة وخدرة. أنا لا أعرف ماذا أن يتمّ ، الذي إلى ثقة. يعرفبنفسي أنا حتّى لا حقّا.

لماذا أنا أشعر مختلفة من من قبل ؟ هناك حصص الأسباب أن يكون سعيدة مع ذلك يبقى أنا في هذا عزلة.

أنا يستطيع لا يحمل هو. هو آذىني…

TIme's Up!

Since my post is all about L-O-V-E aka Romance, I'll use a pink colored font this time.

I've been thinking about the status of my love life since Mid-2007. I encountered some lapses in judgment, and it led me to confusion. But then, things usually fluctuate; just as my heart is. It's just a weird thing about me now; for ever since I was introduced to this kind of thing, I hastily removed it from my system, consequently turning down suitors telling them I am absolutely not interested. Breaking hearts of men may become guilt-laden at times. Going back to my experiences, I never had a broken heart.

Being in a relationship as a newbie seemed fine. However, in my case, I still haven't forget about my crush or maybe "First Love" during the relationship. It haunts me and it makes me feel weirder. I don't know why, but that person, although we didn't share something in the past except being mere classmates, remained in my heart--- or in my mind.

Enrollment nanaman

Hay naku... bad trip! Bukas kelangan nanamang gumising ng maaga. I wonder kung ano nanamang pahirap ang mararanasan ko tomorrow.

Kasi naman di pa ko nkakakuha ng GE na MST! Kulang pa ko ng PE! Pano un? E wala na raw manual enlistment. Lahat computerized na ba, pati nga ung prerog e. Siguro magulo nanaman to ganyan naman talaga e. Makatapos kea akong magenrol? Sana naman no!

Asar.

A Nice Day!

こんにちは！　OK, So nagstart ang maganda kong araw sa favorite show ko ever na Mirumo de Pon!. Grabe ang saya ng episode, parang may hint na si Setsu ay may feelings kay Kaede.

Tapos NAHANAP ko na ang SETSU KO. Hehe. Ang saya! HAha! Ang dapat ko nalang gawin ay...

MAGTAPAT! Haha! Kaso pano? Eeeeee?!

シ　ヴィンセント　ユン！

ありがとう ございました！

ポオスト　に　晩：私　の　友達、C-ちゃん　は。。。

ありがとう！

HAPON

こんにちは　みんな－さん！　これ　は　私　の　ブログ　です。

タガログ　モウド　ナァング。　マス　マダリ　カシ　パグ　タガログ　パパノ　パラング　ジャパニス　ラング。　ンガパラ、　エウシャム　コ　ンガヨン　サ　パン　ピル　１２．　ハハ！

ソ　アイ　ガタ　ゴ　ナウ！　じゃー　ね！

Sem break has finally come!

Finally, after ilang months ng paghihirap (at paglalakwatsa) ay tapos na ang 1st semester. Mamimiss ko ang UPD campus, at ibig sabihin nito... GALA time nanaman! Mas masaya na ngayon kasi yung mga kaibigan ko sa ibang school mkakasama ko na. Ayos din naman ung UPD friends ko pero wla paring tatalo sa orig kong barkada.

Makakapag DVD marathon nanaman ako, makakapagbabad sa TV, internet, YM lahat na yata! Mas mahaba na rin ang tulog ko. Ang mas masaya sa lahat ay NABILI NA ANG BEST BIRTHDAY PRESENT FOR ME SO FAR!

Ano pa nga ba yun edi isang brand new Laptop with SUPER NICE specs, grabe andito na lahat... na matagal nang nasa wishlist ko. Isang item nbalang ang natitira sa wishlist ko at yon ay ang kotse. HAHA! Di pa nga ako marunong magdrive e!

Basta happing happy ako, SUPER!

Yun muna for now. :)

After 10 LONG YEARS?!

Hay Naku!

Sa itinagal-tagal ng panahon e ngayon ko lang na-update ang Blog kong wala namang kapararakan. A ewan basta salamat nalang ke BOB ONG at na-inspire akong mag-share ulit ng mga kung anu-anong ka-ek-ekang sa kabutihang palad e DI PARIN ALAM NG MAGULANG KO (nga ba?).

Ang daming CATEGORIES nito no? Ganyan talaga. Miss na miss ko nang magsulat este magtype. Matagal na kong di nakakapagtype ng fanfiction, aba e niliparan na ako papalayo ng mga ideyang dati-rati'y nandian lang sa tabi-tabi. Unahin na muna natin ang nangyayari sakin ngayon...

Nandito ako sa COMPASS INTERNET ng Robinsons Galleria. Nakakapagtaka para sa isang estudyanteng katulad ko na 7:00 AM to 4:00 PM ang klase na mamataan dito. Siyempre, di parin ako nagbabago (wala kasi to sa New Year's Resolution ko) sa HOBBY ko na mag-CUTTING CLASSES. Kung dati'y dun lang ako sa UP Diliman Shopping Center, e ngayon nakalayu-layo na ako. (ASENSO!)

Ang mahal ng one-hour net fee kumpara sa ibinabayad ko sa Net Coop. Bente lang don. Dito e 50.00 na tumataginting sa isang oras. Kasi naman dito ko pa naisip mag-net no, ang layo! Ngapala ang unang dahilan kung bat ko naisipang FINALLY mag-cut ng class sa MALL ay dahil lang sa CRAVING ko sa SUSHI. Di ko kasi gaanong trip ang Japanese Chibog dun sa SC kaya naman dinayo ko ang Tokyo DOS ng Rob para lang dito. (One way ride kasing mabilis papunta sa mall na to at pauwi sa bahay kaya dito ako no)

Hayan. Napunta narin naman tayo sa usapin ng pagkain e mamaya na muna ang tungkol sa libro. Kumain ako ngayon sa Greenwich, lasagna lang at manok pati yung garlic stix. Tapos Coke Light. Dagdagan mo pa ng SURVEY FORM (ngek chibog ba yon?!). Namataan ko ang BEST SELLERS (bookstore na affiliated yata sa NBS). Ayos! Magawa ngang library ito!

Di nagtagal napadpad ako sa comics section, sa teen books, sa references, magazines, paperbacks, fiction pati sa section tungkol sa RELATIONSHIPS! (Nyaaay) Anyway, nakapagbasa din ako ng MAKING OUT books in Japanese, Korean, Chinese and Filipino. Grabe kakatawa! Me CURSES AND INSULTS section kasi. Sayang di ko natandaan yung mura ng intsik at hapon at koreano. Dibale, bibili ako nun.

Dalawang palapag yon. Umakyat ako at puro noypi books naman. Dun ko na nakasagupa ang mga kamangha-manghang libro ni BOB ONG na sobrang ENLIGHTENING. Napabili tuloy ako. Hahaha. Akala ko katapusan ko na at wala na kong pang meryenda. Di pa pala.

Di kalayuan sa Best Sellers ay ang Starbucks. Ayos. Dito na ako magbabasa ng bagong librong nabili ko. Umorder ako ng Frappuccino tapos dali-dali kong binuksan yung package at presto! Basa na ako. At ano pa nga bang aasahan mo edi tawa ako nang tawa (di naman kalakasan) na sa puntong LITERAL na nasamid ako.

Sa inihaba ng post ko ngayon, oras na para manood ng kahit ano sa crunchyroll veoh o sa naunang youtube. Bahala na. Adieu!

Net net net sa SC

Hehe...

Andito ako ngaun sa SARINTH ENTERPRISES, stall # 44 UP Shopping Center, UP Diliman QC.
[complete mode care of the sign]

Walang Math kanina. Naghintay lang kami sa wala. Tapos ngaun, eto ako sa Shopping Center, nagbabalak na gumawa ng paper sa Kas 1 at paper din sa English 10. Haaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay. Nakakatamad man, dapat ausin ko na ung mga paper ko. Tutal, patapos naman na ang sem. Hehehe. Tapos magsusummer ako. O diba? Sipag ba un? Hindi naman. Palagi rin kasi akong walang ginagawa pag summer, dagdag ingay pa sa bahay at dagdag kalat parin pag nandun ako ng whole duration ng summer.

Anyway, going back sa initial topic ko, ang tahimik dito. Oh yeah. Hehehe...


Sige magddl pa ako ng mga mp3 files kong nakapending jan sa virtual drive ko. Ja ne!

Kas 1, Nakakatuwa!

Grabe ang saya sa Kas 1 class! (Kas 1 meaning Kasaysayan 1: Philippine History)

Hehe, kanina kaya ang saya ng happenings, kami yung reporters tapos may role-play/ skit kami. Then bago pala yun, kumanta kami nung mga kinompose ko na songs para sa Kas 1. Bale ung songs based sa kanta ni Yeng Constantino na "Hawak Kamay" then ung isa pa yung "Harana" by Parokya ni Edgar.

Astig nga e tungkol sa mga HUKBALAHAP (Btw, di ako kasali jan kasi I'm currently under the Japanese occupation wahahaha!) at anti-'Kano naman ung isa. Masaya talaga ako habang nagrereport. :D

Anyway, medyo may kasalanan ako since di ko inexpound yung Chapter 23 of Teodoro Agoncillo's book na "The History of the Filipino People".

Wow, improving ako kasi may post na akong ALL ABOUT SCHOOL. Hehe.

Till next post! (i-post ko yung lyrics na inimbento ko later)
 

Love Hurts. Hehe.

Is this love?

Yan ang mga tanong sa MY BOYRIEND IS TYPE B na movie ni Lee Dong Gun.
(by Ha Mi- main character- girl)


Mahabang istorya. Abangan nyo nalang sa reviews ko.



Anyway, the bible said that "Love is patient, love is kind. It does not boast, it is not proud. 
It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, and so on..."

- 1 Corinthians 13:4-13



 Is it really THAT?



On my recent LOVE experiences, I defied that bible verse. 
And I do believe that the verse is the ideal one. 
The ideal, unattainable definition of Love.



Who loves someone truly and honestly? 
The Prince Charming who kissed Sleeping Beauty away that fateful day her fought the Evil Witch? 
The Prince again, who then kissed Snow White to break yet ANOTHER Witch's spell?



The BIG answer is, a NO! HELL NO.



I'm not kidding, I've experienced this thrice in my LIFE, so haven't I learned?





YES, I just did.



You might wonder who were the ones responsible for this.



Simply my 1st to 3rd loved guy.



Another question might be:



Who did the worst thing?



The latest would be my answer. (Check my profile page for the real answer)



Okay okay... I'm getting more twisted at this.



Please don't mind me. This is just my blog.



And me and my TRUE love, Mr. PC the NONLIVING...



... will last a lifetime...

 

Oooh.... is this a "Long Time No Post" again???

Could I possibly BAG success on my LIFE BAG?

A small voice in the back of my MIND tells me to press forward, even it looks like I AM DEFINITELY DOOMED.

You wanna know why?

Of course YOU MUST. BTW, I am the one updating this BLOG. Hehe.

I had a SUPER FREAKING DAY that I DID NOT KNOW WHAT I WAS SO UP TO, why I DID THAT THING mainly because I WAS PERSUADED AND I REALLY WANT TO DO IT. OMG, DKP.

Sa tagalong/ filipino:

Nagkaroon ako ng SOBRANG KAKAIBANG ARAW na HINDI KO NA ALAM ANG PINAGGAGAGAWA KO, kung bakit naman kasi GINAWA KO YUN malamang dahil NAPAPAYAG AKO AT GUSTO KO TALAGA IYON.

Wooh. Quite... weird, right? Yes. I AM WEIRD.

Here's the most FREAKIN PART OF THE FREAKING DAY: My Horoscope.

The Bottom Line

Expect a great day full of accomplishments! Try to keep the progress under your hat.

In Detail

Expect a great day full of accomplishments! Some of the puzzles you
have been working on are finally coming together, and the picture the
pieces are forming is looking pretty sweet! But before you start making
any big pronouncements, try to keep this amazing progress under your
hat. You will have plenty of time to bask in the spotlight later. But
first you need to wait until everything is done and polished up. Hold
off for a big payoff!

DKP again.Do I need to explain to you why this was inserted in the picture? I mean, in the BLOG POST?

Come on, who believes HOROSCOPES nowadays? Only Grannys and Moms who have no idea how SINFUL it is to believe this stuff. I guess I should REALLY CONFESS. OMG. I am now a NUT> a HAZEL NUT.

I could say I'm QUITE intellectual to IGNORE this thing. But... BELIEVE me. It's soooooooooo true.

:)

I'd tell you about it later.