All About “J”

Yes, this letter has been invading my mind for the past 7 years now. What’s with this letter that almost everything related to the things that make me go in hanyaan mode involves it? Hmn. Let me enumerate some of it, but please, do not react violently.

 

1. First off is the set of “Johns” in our 2nd year OL Rosary classroom. :)
2. Next is the J’s in my closest guy friends’ names (June, JM, John Gerard, JJJ…).
3. Then third would be initial J of the hated person I had in 3rd year Rose of Lima (no name dropping :D)
4. Followed by my first boyfriend’s first name during 4th year high school
5. Then the nickname of one of my suitors starts with it,
6. Add up to the list would be the name of my first Asian guy idol and crush, Mr. Jerry Yan
7. Seconded by Jay Chou during 4th year high school, thanks to Inital D Live Action (and JKP for introducing him)
8. Then another hated person for end of High School :)
9. And yet another, why would I forget, my first crush during Elementary school, James…
10. Don’t forget High School’s viral J crush :D
11. College days had more than 7 friends with the J initial (JR, Jill, Jester, and a lot more).
12. Had another J Chinese (this time Mainland) crush, he is Jun Ning
13. Ooh, speaking of Jun, my other hot Japanese guy during High School is Arashi’s Jun Matsumoto (Tsukasa of HYD)
14. Then Jun Pyo and Ji Hoo comes along during College (BBF)
15. Still, JS is my current boyfriend,
16. At College, encountered many Jose’s in NCPAG (yea you know who you are :))
17. At UP, encountered the JJ’s in this recent UP Fair (Jumping Jologs, XD)
18. And finally, J is the first letter of my favorite country, JAPAN :)

 

I know there would be more to this that I haven’t included, but this shall do for the meantime. I should add to this if anything comes my way related to this.

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Kanina, matiwasay na natapos ang aming isinagawang pagtitipon ukol sa mga Gore Films—kabilang na dito ang Re-animator: Bride of Re-animator, Beyond Re-animator, at ang Hellraiser Series. Masaya naman kami kahit kakaunti lang talaga at hindi naman ganon kagulo. Kasi naman, expected rin naman ay tatlong tao lang. Buti nga at nakadalo nga si C. Kaya ayun, naging magulo lang nang kaunti ang pagtitipon. Nang malaman naming sa 2010 ay mayroong Re-animator Part 4 ay halos magtatalon kami sa tuwa. Nang dahil don, na-inspire na ipagpatuloy ang educational naming gawain sa pamamagitan ng pagsasagawa muli ng isang Gore Marathon Part 4 sa pagtatapos ng bakasyon (extended kasi). Kaya ayan na nga at may bagong event nanaman sa Facebook kaming ginawa kanina lamang.

Maagang napa-uwi ng bahay ang mga kasama namin kaya as usual si Hani naman ang last man standing na kasama kong nanood hanggang part 4 lang ng Hellraiser. Medyo nakakabitin nga lang kasi hindi namin malaman kung papaano magsisimula ang part 5 sa ganung klase ng ending. Pero sige, binitin muna namin para rin next time mas maraming mapanood pa at hindi maubusan sa Gore Mara Part 4. Ang weird lang kasi na-hook ako kaagad sa Hellraiser samantalang hindi ko pinapansin ang ganoong uri ng pelikula noong araw. Parang naisip ko pa nga na, “Ano ba namang klaseng tao tong si B, ang hilig sa ganito…” pero di nagtagal ay eto ako at naghahangad pang makapanood nang mas marami.

Pero iyon nga lang, wala kaming gaanong mahikayat na makisama sa aming butihing gawain na ipamahagi ang ganda ng gore films sa kapwa namin estudyante o kaibigan. Medyo sensitibo kasi ang nilalaman ng mga pelikulang tulad ng Re-animator, at may pagka-porn at atheist ang dating nito sa karamihan. Napapaatras rin namin sila dahil ito nga ay gory—madugo, kadiri, eew, yuck, at kung anu-ano pa. Masasabing ang may matitibay lang na sikmura ang makakakain ng spaghetti o kaldereta pagkatapos ng ganitong pelikula (o habang ito ay pinanonood pa lamang).

Kanina, sopas na tinanggalan ng guts ang aming kinain. Hindi kasi ako palo sa ginawa ng nanay ko na may halong atay. Alam naman niyang ayaw ko kaya hiwalay ang kinain namin. Buti nalang at hindi niya itinuloy ang spaghetti at carbonara kahit alam niyang paborito ko iyon. Binalaan ko kasi na walang kakain non, sapagkat ganung klaseng pelikula nga ang pagpipistahan ng mga mata namin kinalaunan. Buti nalang at naniwala nga siya sa akin at hindi niya ipinilit ang gusto niya.

Kaya sa susunod na gore mara ay iniimbitahan ko ang karamihan sa mga inimbitang hindi nagsidalo upang makisali at masaksihan kung ano nga ba ang gore sa buhay ng tao (oo, alam kong wala talagang kinalaman pero trip ko lang talaga na sabihin yon). Join na!

Ang Parusa ng MASA…

Ngayon, nagkukwentuhan kami ni JM tungkol sa mga weird naming panaginip na hindi namin inaasahan. Yung sa kanya, talagang masakit sa damdamin at gustung-gusto ko sana siyang tulungan. Pero wala rin akong magawa, kaya kinuwento ko rin yung sakin, medyo weird pero normal lang din naman kung tutuusin.

Ang hindi namin matanggap sa mga panaginip namin kagabi ay ang realidad na pag nangyari nga ito ay wala na kaming kawala. Masasaktan at masasaktan kami nang hindi namin inaasahan. Yung sa akin, ayos parin pero hindi naman kasi ako sigurado sa mangyayari, at saka parang masagwa rin naman yung nangyari. Kay JM naman, hindi naman siya karapat-dapat na masaktan nang ganoon, di siya deserving.

Bigla tuloy namin naisip na kasalanan namin kagabi kasi yung quiz app sa FB na Sinong Pinoy Papansin Personality Ka? e ang resulta ni JM si Dean Madame Auring ng MASA. Baka ika namin e pinaparusahan kami ng butihing dean namin. Hala. Pinagkatuwaan kasi namin kagabi eh. Sorry po Dean Madame! Madame Dean! Sorry sorry sorry…

 

Sleepless in Pasig

1:01 AM and still, I could not put myself to sleep. While most people I know are still awake and doing their nightly and daily rituals—whether that be a net thing or not—I cannot bother them like they bother me. Anyway, today’s the final day of the Happy Days Streak, and tomorrow will be the grueling UP Diliman Summer Enrollment Year 3. Oh god, I wonder what sorts of mishaps will occur tomorrow. Will I lose my short temper again for some reasons known to me? Argh. I hope not.

Last night, I was having the best chat time with my old-time friends and family, the ones I go out from the school building with many years ago, those people who had been a great part of my social life, and they who became my closest buddies up to this very moment. Yes, we relived. We had reminisced. I miss all of them. I’m also happy that they are mostly Globe subscribers.

At this point of time, my eyes haven’t give up though my hands and fingers feel pretty much tired already. What made me more awake is the orders I have received to sleep now. I still don’t want to. And because of that, it did change my mood. Grr. This is what I hate about turning on the lights of my room. I could not move an inch after midnight with lights on. I should’ve played the Liar Game. X(

Diamond Peeling Bonding

Today, the 15th of March, I experienced something new… in my face!

Just yesterday, my BFF asked me if I’m free today. So I answered yes, and asked why. Then he replied that he’ll be treating me to a Derm Clinic for Diamond Peeling. I had second thoughts on going (o yes, I had!), but then with his say, I finally agreed. Oh yea. And I had to undergo the process just earlier this afternoon. Here’s how I went through it:

1. First was the Facial Steaming, accompanied by chikas and that.

2. Next was the massage, with some cream on it.

3. Then here’s the painful part, wherein the blackheads, pimples, and other elements were… extracted from my face. I bled.

4. After some tears, the aesthetician was sorta bothered by my bushy eyebrows, so she took the liberty of “arranging” them for me.

5. After that, I had my face rubbed by another cream, and sponged too.

6. This one’s my favorite part: the Seaweed Cream. Here’s how I looked like:

 

God, I looked like a yuurei here! :P

 

7. After some drying time, me and my dude C had this photo op together (sorry I have to post this! We look brilliant anyway! :D)

Oh yes, that’s us in our yuurei looks. Scary, ne?

8. Finally, the cream was removed with warm water and sponge, then followed by cold water to lock the pores back.

9. And voila! I had my face cleaned… and pricked! XD

Like my friend John said, “Beauty is Pain”. But then again, I didn’t came for beauty. Just the pain. :P Just kidding, this has been a pleasant experience and bonding time for us anyway. :)

Next month, I think I’ll be going back again.

Special thanks to Ate _______ (I forgot her name!) and of course, to my BFF, C.

**My hair still smells like barbecue grill smoke**

Tumbling Down

Like blocks, every single thing in our life composes us and makes us whole. And when some block gets off the tower, it could either ruin the entire tower or not do any effect on it. That’s the same as little things that we experience everyday. And the only thing is it’s hard to rebuild our tower—especially if its something intangible.

So much for citing something and the like, I would just want to share some things me and my guy friend RA had talked about earlier. It’s all about interim relationships. First, let’s clearly define what interim here means.

In my POV, interim means an interval. In Pinoy slang, panakip-butas. In short, sort of rebound. Both of the parties just broke up with their previous partners and found solace in each other. So that’s what happened between him and her # 2. They were each other’s interims. Oh well, they had fun, as he told me. But in the end, he broke her heart. He couldn’t love her.

Hello There, How Are You?

Old friends, they never went away. They’ve just been missing for some time. In the end, they’ll come and say hello to you again. Recently, I ran into quite many of them. Common hellos and how are you?’s were exchanged. It’s funny how we can still talk about a lot of things we had encountered before. Maybe it’s what we call reminiscing.

A lot has changed—from our physical attributes (haircut, skin color, facial expression, faces… hehe) to the emotional well-being of each one. Many had successful relationships, social life and others remained in their acads standing, improved, or delineated. Whatever happened, we still have the same smiles we exchanged as we talked the hours off.

Funny how the depressed ones had overhauled their emotions and now became twice as happy as the happy ones before. Some didn’t change, they just became more of what they should be. All those years of not seeing each other personally really made us miss each other more.

Well, that’s for a change. :)

Hiram

Kanina, nagkaroon kami ng maikling pananatili sa SM Megamall dahil nanood nga kami ng sine at naglakwatsa, pati bumili rin ng kung anu-anong makakain. Pagkarating namin nahanap kagad namin yung mga kasama sa paggala, na di nagtagal e humiwalay rin sa amin. Tapos nun kinatagpo namin yung kaklase ko, at dun sa French Baker naganap ang aming transaksyon—ng mga anime DVDs. Ayos naman kasi nakuha ko yung case na may mga favoried oldies ko, gaya ng Evangelion. Natutuwa ako dahil pinahiram nya ako. :) Di man lang ako nakapagpasalamat.

Tapos ayun na nga nagkakilala na silang lahat at siyempre naipakita ko na rin sa kanya ang ilang katotohan sa mga naikuwento ko. Tapos nung nakalingap yung isa, nag-usap kami ni klasmeyt. Sabi nya, masyado raw mabait para sakin yung kasama ko. At tinawanan pa nya ako. Sabay amin din niyang hindi niya maintindihan ang pinanggagalingan nung mga hinain ko noon. Tapos, sabi pa niya, inaantagonize ko pa siya. Ngek. Sabi ko, di naman e. Sabay ayun bumalik siya na me dalang shiny coins na 5. Natuwa yung kaklase ko tas nagpalitan sila.

Supermarket ang susunod naming tinira. Ok naman. Maraming nabiling pang pagkain. Ang lamig don. Gamit na gamit yung jacket. Haha. Umalis din pagkatapos nun yung kaklase ko tapos kami diretso na sa sinehan. Maganda yung pelikulang Bride Wars. Ang ganda ng kwento, pati yung inasahan kong twist na si Emma ay makakatuluyan yung kapatid ni Liv. Hehe.

Ayos naman tong araw na to, basta kelangan ko lang naman sigurong mapanuod lahat ng nahiram ko bago matapos ang Marso. Kasi, bakasyon na. :)

Some Stupid Thing I’ve Done

To start off, I’ll tell you about something that happened earlier. I suddenly remembered Eddie Gil while staring blankly at my anime tapes section just below our Cassette Tape Deck. It was the memories of his single entitled “Pelukang Itim” that flooded my mind. I was so fond of music, especially those that make me laugh out. When it was summer of 2004, I recorded that song. And later on, it was included on his debut album “Pinoy Idol?”. The connection? I became his fan before I bought that CD. Yeah, talk about stupidity.

Anyway, that time JM and I spent time talking a lot and hanging-out so much even though he’s studying at RHS already. One afternoon, we’ve researched him and there we found about one of his (Eddie Gil) addresses. So we had a little plan. That is, to send a fan letter professing our utmost support in his greatness as a singer and an actor (he has a movie!), and also, asking for a copy of his CD. God. We were so adamant and serious back then!

So what happened next is that the letter was composed, printed and placed in a white envelope—ready for mailing. As I’ve said, we were so serious about this, so we decided to actually send it through a mailing center beside PCA (my ex-school back then) and in front of RHS (JM’s high school that time). We eagerly spread the news to Kog and had her join us while we do the breath-taking embarrassing moment of our lives.

Guess what? She was laughing so hard that she can’t contain her amusement. We eventually did it, making the people at that mailing center puzzled. We have no clue that it’s actually not going to work. When JM and I decide to do something, we become overly optimistic of its outcome to the point of imagining a whole lot of things.

Oh yes, it was a failure. Not that the mail was returned, but probably it was not read by our idol. Too unfortunate for us. Oh well, we didn’t get to see his film either. In short, we haven’t accomplished a thing about our fanaticism. Then and there, the EG addiction flew away. As simple as that… :D

Bangkok Pills: What's It All About

There has been a new page added in my blog. It was entitled "Bangkok Pills". This title was inspired by the 'book' of drama anthologies (and other episodes) that JM had dreamed of and we've already discussed.

Bangkok, being the capital of Thailand, became part of the title. The stories/dreams to be talked about or written will be with Pchy as a main cast. Of course, he's the 'man of the moment'. When this passes by, or when I have a new foreign or not foreign squeeze, it will soon change. But then, I hope to add the previous episodes besides Kakurenbo. However, Bangkok Pills as the title won't have to work anymore.

I hope that the project would be started immediately. I think I won't have any chance to write it during Summer. It's because I might have the internship during that time...

Simply Addictive

Songs of the Japanese people had invaded my mind since the beginning of my otaku career. Everyday, it's sure for a Japanese song to play continuously in my mind. That is what we termed as a "virus" when we were in 5th grade. Back then, the term "LSS" or "Last Song Syndrome" hasn't been coined yet. And also, back then, we rely on Tape recordings or Cassette Tapes to be exact for our song needs. We record the TV songs of the anime series we loved to watch.

The simplemindedness we had was trivial to how we loved the Japanese culture. Oftentimes, like how the fan my friend JM was for TTK to the point of having dreams with them also happened to me when we were 10 years old. I told Kog and Jeanne Frances every single Weiss Kreuz crossover with Escaflowne dreams I had, and those dreams occur in episodes. My imagination ran wild during those times. As I recall, there was this weird dream about the Weiss Kreuz guys being chased by Merle of Escaflowne, and they were... selling deodorants. I could only laugh at the plots of my dreams. To us, they must be real. And they must be happening.

Singing anime songs had been a daily ritual for us back then. Whether it be a solo, duet, or trio we would sing our hearts while remembering the episode yesterday, chatting on it even through the telephone. Anime endings or finales would make our hearts cry our and of course, literally we cried. Sentimentality among us ruled as we reminisce the episodes, or even as we talked of our dreams about them. They seemed real in our own paradise.

Indeed, anime has brought us all of the happiness we could remember with our strong and close ties with each other. And through the years, we still remember what kinds of addicts we were. During our high school we were separated upon my transfer to another school. But we never forget. Oftentimes, our topic would still be the same on our phone calls and YM sessions. We never forgot about them. If an anime character we loved celebrates his or her birthday, we greet each other with that. They are all special to us. Hence, simply addictive would be the term. Over and over, these things fill our hearts with little joys.

We love anime. :)

Enroll Na!

Hehe. Our imaginative minds really took us to wherever imagination should take us. Recently, in my profile, a lot of changes had occurred. There were additions which other people do not know of. Surprise, surprise! Only two people know about it. Guess who? Me of course, and one of my closest buddies JM.

All of these began when we were in High school. Before he transferred to RHS, JM was also a long-time PCCian like my bff C-chan. Anyway, we usually talk for hours in the phone when YM is not yet our forte and when we still have dial-ups as internet connection.

We talk until the sun comes down and until it almost rises again. That talk, we considered as a Radio Program. And so the Program at that time when we haven't idolized the "Tambalan" at Love Radio (Nichole and Chris) was just called by its Radio Station DZ Hilo (a pun for Dizzy and Hilo- both meaning the same).

Not long after that, we have imaginative talks and until the time I went to vacation in third year High school. JM was to transfer at RHS the next school year, and so I was hoping for a section change that time. I had several experiences that are so unforgettable during vacation of 2004, and I had of course some quality time to narrate everything to JM. He listened well, and surprisingly, he could tell some of the things there! And then, M.A.S.A. was born. Madam Auring's School of Astrology is the first school's name.

In line with that, Eddie Gil, a once presidentiable in our country caught our comical imaginative minds. We had him as our first "Pinoy Idol" and we heard from TV that he's going to have his movie with Madam Auring. JM, who is so fond of singing old songs and anything under the sun (that's why I called him my "Jukebox") decided to have another school where we are attending: the E.G.S.S. or Eddie Gil's School of Singing (or Singing School).

Several things happened between me and JM and it will be a longer story. Anyhow, our friendship came back to its solid state, stronger than ever. If before, we only talked of dreams related to TTK Max and others, now we had our interests jived together in making something. This something is simply Kakurenbo, our novel, that we made in order to fulfill the need of the writers within us.

Kakurenbo was just a spin-off of some dramas like Goong and Meteor Garden, and a mixture of parodies and spoofs we made. But generally, the plot and concept are originally ours. The characters were almost all actually living--the people who had made an impact in our mortal lives. Since High school, we've been writing stories on our own, his "Love is in the Air" and my fan fictions. Making Kakurenbo together really made us realize hard work and of course we had so much fun while we did it.

The rest of the schools and companies were created alongside Kakurenbo: first is M.I.P- Makati or the Maharlikang Institusyon ng Pilipinas. This is where the main characters in our story study. An imaginary school of elite and royal bloods. Next is B.I.S.A- Bitoy's International Spoof Academy. That's were our imaginative spoofs came about. Next is S.U.K.A.- Sharon's (Sharon Cuneta) Advertising (I forgot the other letters! :P). This is where we associate the advertisements we created and had caught our attention. Finally, the two broadcast companies were also created as part of the story. L.B.M. or the Liberty Broadcasting Media was the TV station of the antagonists in Kakurenbo, and U.T.I. or Universal Television Incorporated, the archenemy of L.B.M. which is supposedly appearing on the sequel of Kakurenbo.

Not long after Kakurenbo, I had crushes with same letters in their names. They were called by JM as the 3M. When ABC-5 reformatted and became TV-5, the idea of having another TV network in the "Kaharian" led to the creation of TV-3M, where all my crushes with the M's (3M) are supposed to be working.

Just recently, we had the Thai Invasion which led to the creation of two other schools, H.A.F.Y.A.W. and P.A.Y.A.T.. They were created because of the dreams we recently had-- about ourselves and the "gang" JM usually meets at my birthday (which includes Zoren, Roy "Banlag" and my boyfriend). Pchy came into my life and continued in JM's, so P.A.Y.A.T. stands for Pchy's Academy for Young Artists and Talents. H.A.F.Y.A.W. is related to all of us-- Hazel and Friends' Young Artists Workshop. Istarbuko, a spoof in Kakurenbo suddenly became my working place in one of JM's dreams (with Pipoy/Pchy's Filipino nickname).

As time passes by, I think there will be additional schools and companies. We're starting to wonder if we are the only ones attending them, with respective deans Madam Auring and Eddie Gil, and others...

So what are you all waiting for? Enroll na! :D

Ken Hidaka's Birthday

Hail to Ken Hidaka-- the precursor of my anime crushes, my first true love and forever will be my anime love. His brown eyes and hair had first attracted me when I was a 5th grader at Pasig Christian Academy.

From the moment I saw him on GMA 7, I knew it was love. I have fallen for an anime character madly for the first time, and thus I branded him as mine. Following that, the OKAY barkada came about-- Omi, Ken, Aya, Yohji-- but later on we decided to remove Yohji since he's not cute for us. The barkada became OKAV then-- Omi Tsukiyono of Weiss Kreuz, Ken Hidaka of Weiss Kreuz, Aya/Ran of Weiss Kreuz, Van Fanel of Escaflowne. Each letter corresponded to each member's "love" way back then.

Many anime crushes had followed Ken, but no one of them replaced him in the top spot. At some point, I almost rejected him. This was when the time Slam Dunk came to local Philippine Television. I fell for Rukawa Kaede's charm. He became the number one crush for 2 school years. Then Yoh Asakura came and replaced him. That was another 1 and a half year, because Uchiha Sasuke arrived. My world was shook. Sasuke-kun became the number one crush, and I therefore named him as the Ultimate Anime Crush. No other anime character removed him from the spot. Up to this point, 4 years standing, Sasuke-kun is still the anime crush.

I decided to keep Ken Hidaka, of course. He's so memorable. My addiction of him lasted for a good 2 years, but no one really replaced him as my one true love in anime.

Thai Invasion

It's not that I've changed my preferences. I only added a bit to it.

If you were one of the people who observed and have visited (of course) my profile, you might have noticed that my location now is Krung Thep, Bangkok, Thailand. My "hometown" is still Tokyo, Japan (in my dreams). This signifies my newest addiction, or what I termed now as the "Thai Invasion".

Several reasons became the impetus for the addition of Thai in my music and hot guys preference. First off is Pchy or Witwisit Hirayanwongkul of the August Band. He is, by far, the hottest guy actor and singer I've seen in Thai sector. Next would be the songs of August Band, starting with Pchy's songs of course. Finally, the beginning of everything, JM's persistence and continuous influence. Haha. I can't get through my hatred of Pchy's debut film (The Love of Siam, where his role is GAY) without him. Thanks, dude!

And because of that, I already had this research mania on Thai culture which includes the following: Music, Language, and Literature.

If this mania is seasonal like my Cantonese Pop addiction, we'll see about that.

The Emotions Are Getting To Me...

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Hanyaaan...

I'm in Love. Right now. Again?!

Whew. Multiple Categs. Again and again.

Mata. Mata. Mata. Haha Oro plata mata? Nope. Mata in Japanese is "again". That 'other' mata means whatever. (not interested) Anyway, a while ago, JM-kun, my friend came over to our house as we finish something important. After dinner, we watched TV. It was just about to start. PBB Teen Edition PLUS. Yeah, it's quite a boring show at first for me (I wasn't really hooked, you know) but when I saw him, I changed my mind.

Haha. Very fickle minded me again. Here comes this again. Hahaha. I could only laugh. If only you could see how I reacted.

Do you really believe you'll see something you don't expect to see? I mean, come on. This got real. He got real. He's now real. He was real, but he wasn't. This time I know he's real. I saw him real. Yes, it is true that he's real.

See that point? Hahahaha. I could only laugh. No one's reading this blog anyway! HaAHAHAH!

I guess I'd end up saying this:

This is what happened earlier: JM and I were proofreading when I closed my laptop and turned to the TV. He commented, "You know what, that guy... he might be the one fit to become the role of the prince. It's just what we're looking for. We might recruit him if this would be live!"

I looked closely at the screen. Zoom that. "Oh yeah, that was my new crush. Hmn... you're right! You're good, dude!" I exclaimed. "That's how I expect him to look like. That skin color..."

We laughed. "So is this a sign or something?" he asked.

I shook. "Dunno." I continued staring at the screen. "Oh no..." I began to feel a bit dazed. "JM, this is happening again."

I held into my chest and gasped. "Yes. This is happening again!" I affirmed.

He was weirded by it, and he didn't react at first. He talked about something again, and when 'he' was focused on the screen, my heart thumped rapidly.

"This... I'm falling in love again!" I exclaimed.

"Why you..." he jokingly answered. "So that's how it is! That's Kurt!"

"Yeah, it's Kurt!"

We decided to brand 'him' as Kurt. We grinned. "So the other guy must be Esteban."

I shook my head. "No, his eyes are not larger."

"And that guy is 'malamya'"

I grinned. After a while of watching, I just decided, it's time to reveal how I feel this time...

"HE's now MY Certified Crush! I LIKE HIM!"

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And so it goes, now I'm love-struck. I wonder how far will this go now that 3 of them had just began to fade away?

It's TV. It's purely TV.

If he wins, I'm pretty sure WE (JM and I) will do something.

^^

Weirded. Dazed. Is there a word called weirded? Dunno. I just knew it from the first time.

I'm in Love. Right now. Again?!

.... with you, Robi. ^^

Planetarium

The moonlit evening shows its face
And a child's voice is vanishing
Far away, far away, I guess you're somewhere in this sky
In the end of the Summer, we sneaked away to this park we had found
Do you remember that constellation somehow?

Even if I can't meet you, I pursue my memories
I wanna look at the same happiness
Along with that smell, the fireworks open in a flash

I want to live, I want to live and run to your place right now
I can't see anything in the pitch dark, even if it's scary, I'm all right
The countless starry sky is still here now, forever
I won't cry because the sky I saw before with you was beautiful

The sound of your shoes remains in my ears and resounds as far as that path
I guess I'm staring at my own great shadow

It may not change at all but my painful feelings are getting inflated
No matter how I felt, you're no longer with me

I want to live even if it's a little, even if it's a little, right by you're side
You're the one I like the most, so I can be strong
I tried softly reciting a wish upon a shooting star
I won't cry, has it reached you? In this beautiful sky

I want to live, grasping tightly your little hand towards your place
I want to cry, that was, that was a beautiful sky
I tried softly reciting a wish upon a shooting star

I want to cry, you won't reach my feelings in this sky...

                                     English translation of  "Planetarium" sung by Ai Otsuka

It seems melodramatic. Yes, the lyrics were "meant" to be dramatic--in the sense that this one's the song played at Hana Yori Dango 1 every time there's this Tsukushi Makino sad moment. The first time I saw Hana Dan and this song being played, I cried. I kinda recognize the Japanese lyrics in my intuitive and contextual Japanese auto-dictionary placed on my frustrated Japanese mind...

Those vivid stuff where I cried aren't the ones worth remembering--but it haunts me more than any other happy nor traumatic memory I have had.

Although they say I have all the reasons to be happy--good family members, preferable environment, my own room with my choice of gadgets, good school, kind friends...it doesn't seem to make me happy at all. I often wonder, is it just me that's not contented or humans were designed to seek for their happiness throughout their lives till they die, still yet unsatisfied?

We can find all the "happy" things in this world to satisfy us, but only for a limited span of time. As I've watched doramas, movies and the like; read novels and other e-books, "happy endings" were shown; but to some authors, they've shown the truth in their fiction. Surprisingly, that "truth" I've said didn't surprise me at all. It's simple. I take things as logical as possible in every angle as long as I could justify it.

This song took me aback--since I have "nothing" as experience to this kind of "longing" and "crying" the song writer had written, it still had this adverse effect on me. As if I suddenly thought, "Oh wow, I could relate to this well?". Again, is it my instinct (if you call it that way) to "automatically put my shoes on someone else's"?

Humans like us were created like a machine fascinatingly in full detail, that every "gear" was synchronized to affect the rest of the "machines" in the "factory" wherein we were "tasked" to work efficiently so as for us not to be "dispatched" and "thrown" eventually...

Sounds a little stupid, ne? I do believe that's what is going on here on our "factory" the earth, our dwelling place.

I'd end this post saying that...

I'm too stupid to write stuff that seems unrelated under one title. D'oh!

Kami-sama Onegaishimasu!

I just saw the Taiwanese dubbed "Sana Maulit Muli" entitled "Chances" on Taiwanese TV. It was aired last Feb 18, I guess (or was it on March? whatever) in Taiwan. It's so cool. I like the seiyuu for each cast. It's funny, since I am used in watching Taiwanese faces talking in Filipino, but to see Filipino faces talking in Taiwanese... it's so funny for me. Being a fan of Taiwanese drama, it's some sort of pride for Filipino dorama addicts like me. Personally, I liked the plot of that soap, especially since it discussed high school lives in a dramatic level. Sibling rivalry, discrimination of poor from rich, unrequited love--all of which it showed--was so good that's why it's one of the soaps in Filipino TV I watched closely (besides "Maging Sino Ka Man" and "Pangako sa 'Yo").

Though it's Kim and Gerald's first primetime show on TV, it garnered 33% something over-all ratings (much higher than what Goong received on its motherland). Maybe because the competitor (GMA 7) showed something "not better" (I forgot what they were showing that time). Oh well, if there would be some torrent of that show (Tw dubbed), I'd grab it and download all 60 eps! (haha, the pirate I am) Anyway, it's worth your time although they say the plot was copied after "If Only..." (the movie). Moreover, I am an absolute KimErald fan. (Yeah right!)

It's just now that I survived from sleepyness since my "kareshi" stayed at our place til 4 AM. That one made me sleepy for around 1 day. After a heck of sleep on Saturday afternoon and early sleep on Saturday night, I survived. Now I'm back, and ready for school tomorrow. And the usual Math 11 quiz every morning is to come. I wonder what ____ _'s get-up would be, or _____ ___'s too...

Anyway, I bought a headset (finally) already. It's so nice. (Actually, it's intended for an Ipod) Now, I'm listening to my fave tunes. The song right now is "Juukuji no NYUUSU" ("19:00 News" also translated as "7'oclock News"). The lyrics is for guys who are dying to announce his long-term relationship to a girl who hides it from everyone, and has lots of suitors. It has a nice beat, tune and Tokio sang it for KodoCha (anime). The lyrics is soooo nice. I'm so in loved with this song for a month now.

I'm getting more excited for a lot of things in summer. Next Acad Year, I might be transferring to a new College Unit at UP Diliman. I didn't survive Engineering. I knew this would happen, since it's not my forte and interest. (another thing is about the people in IE--I have nothing against you--but I don't feel like I belong with them) I'm more inclined in Political Issues and in writing stuff. Hopefully, if accepted in a Pre-law course (Either in CSSP or NCPAG), I'd continue studying Bachelor of Laws. Scary, right? I mean, it's not like me to take things seriously like this and make a grand plan.

Whatever happens, I just want to enjoy College life in total, have my final week at UPD for AY 07-08 end happily, take my upcoming exams seriously, pass my papers on time, have my grand reunion with CSFT5S barkada, attend Ozine Fest '08, try if I could cosplay, enroll for summer, apply to other Colleges, pass summer classes (with 1's on it AGAIN! what a dream...), get a new mobile phone... finally... GET INTO A NEW COLLEGE for AY 2008-2009! (God, I'm getting older. There'd be a new batch of freshies this year.)

So much to expect, so much to do, so much responsibilities to handle, so much to hope and pray for. I hope kami-sama guides me. This would be my last chance in life!

"Kami-sama, onegaishimasu!"

TODAY WAS THE BEST!

Yeah! What about having a Japanese-Korean meal at the inconvenience of your home's outside swing?

This was what happened earlier after Zoren, JM and I came from Market! Market!.

We went to the supermarket, and hell, the imported goods section was soooooo damn good! We had bought Japanese, Korean and Chinese goodies as dinner. One was the oh-so-yummy cup ramen, and this super cool Soju we had. With regards to the Soju, we needed a chaser, since it's "humahagod" and all that. I noticed my eating and drinking buddies were almost 'wasted'. Zoren gave up first after some shots, and he went home earlier.
JM remained for our novel, and the Soju left was saved for the next time we'll have our Japanese-Korean eating and drinking session.

It was fun at Market Dos, (as I call it) and at first, It was just me and Zoren. We attended Youth Service after we chatted MORE at Starbucks. (we only atended the last 10 minutes of the Youth thing because it started at 2 PM. ^^) We then proceeded to some shopping after we had our photo taken:










After this, we went shopping at the Gift Market, and I bought some cute silver earrings. JM then came (finally!) and we had laughed more all the way. We even tasted the so-called "Japanese Siomai"--the one with Nori and crab on it. We saw Ichyworms and Calla Lilly (they were singing in the background while we chatted) and then home was the final destination (My home).

I want this to be repeated, but the next time would be with KOG and the rest.

^^ Yamato tamashii!! OK!

2 more nights to go!

Oh yeah! What's more exciting than your planned get-away with your barkada after years of not seeing each other???

Yep. That's right. This Saturday, hopefully, me and my separate barkadas --- composed of the Jerbacks family, and the trio JM, C-chan and Zoren--- would have to meet each other and have so much fun!