Sleepless in Pasig

1:01 AM and still, I could not put myself to sleep. While most people I know are still awake and doing their nightly and daily rituals—whether that be a net thing or not—I cannot bother them like they bother me. Anyway, today’s the final day of the Happy Days Streak, and tomorrow will be the grueling UP Diliman Summer Enrollment Year 3. Oh god, I wonder what sorts of mishaps will occur tomorrow. Will I lose my short temper again for some reasons known to me? Argh. I hope not.

Last night, I was having the best chat time with my old-time friends and family, the ones I go out from the school building with many years ago, those people who had been a great part of my social life, and they who became my closest buddies up to this very moment. Yes, we relived. We had reminisced. I miss all of them. I’m also happy that they are mostly Globe subscribers.

At this point of time, my eyes haven’t give up though my hands and fingers feel pretty much tired already. What made me more awake is the orders I have received to sleep now. I still don’t want to. And because of that, it did change my mood. Grr. This is what I hate about turning on the lights of my room. I could not move an inch after midnight with lights on. I should’ve played the Liar Game. X(

Hello There, How Are You?

Old friends, they never went away. They’ve just been missing for some time. In the end, they’ll come and say hello to you again. Recently, I ran into quite many of them. Common hellos and how are you?’s were exchanged. It’s funny how we can still talk about a lot of things we had encountered before. Maybe it’s what we call reminiscing.

A lot has changed—from our physical attributes (haircut, skin color, facial expression, faces… hehe) to the emotional well-being of each one. Many had successful relationships, social life and others remained in their acads standing, improved, or delineated. Whatever happened, we still have the same smiles we exchanged as we talked the hours off.

Funny how the depressed ones had overhauled their emotions and now became twice as happy as the happy ones before. Some didn’t change, they just became more of what they should be. All those years of not seeing each other personally really made us miss each other more.

Well, that’s for a change. :)

121 Pressure

Shucks. Eto na yon, this is it. Kainis. Ewan ko ba pero mas takot na yata ako sa 121. Sabagay, mas may alam yata ako sa 151—pano kasi nangalap din naman ako ng readings sa 151… e sa 121, di na nga ako pumapasok, nagrerecite, at siyempre, walang readings since November 2008. Three days ago lang ako nakakuha! Mantakin mo yon?

Tapos, ang GOOD news pa dito e bukas na ang aming bonggang-bonggang midterms. Haha. Ano kaya maisasagot ko? Hmn… funny that I didn’t worry about this earlier. Hehe.

So nagmamarathon nga pala ako ng Sana Maulit Muli… nice to go back to the oldies. Hehe.

Oh well. Bagsak na kung bagsak. My bad. :D

Bored Days Flings

Fling - a brief casual relationship.

             -Wikipedia

I guess I better recognize some people who had been in my life when I strayed from someone else… wait. Is it really something like straying? No. I mean, duh. Whatever. Who’ll care? We do not remember each other now. Nor does he know about it.

So once in my life as a College gal, I tried going back to other chatrooms I haven’t visited for a long time. And I was, at that time also using BearShare as my downloader which has chat features. I did search for guys my age (I was 17 back then) and started chatting with them. These are parts of the things I did that I remember:

*Take note that no one of them knew my real name. Maybe a few of them, but mostly they call me Aya, my YM nick and also in Bearshare. All these are the ones I gave or got my number. There are lots of others that are just in my list but I didn’t really find interesting, that’s why they didn’t have my number.*

1. I met Jasper at Bearshare. He looked fine in his pic, so I talked to him and that. Okay. So we did come to the point of texting each other. His service provider was Smart. I had a Smart sim back then. He is an anime fan too. He also called our home. I heard he’s a 4th year high school dude from Antipolo. We continued talking till January. Ended too soon.

2. Next was the guy named Bryan. This one’s quite persistent. He does want me for a girlfriend, but I refused mainly because I do not know him and I have a principle of not hooking with guys that I just met randomly. Besides, I have a boyfriend that time. He still pursued that, I didn’t waver. Well, he even asked for a term like 100 days before I agree. Didn’t work for me. Ultimately, we stopped talking and texting.

3. Alex was next. Was he someone I knew from a friend? I don’t know. His providers are Sun and Globe. Somewhat persistent, but I turned him down earlier on. We just became friends and text pals. Did not last, though he still sends forwarded quotes. Okay. So he said things like he likes me. Whatever.

4. Gelo is another guy from Bearshare. He’s attractive, however he has Smart sim alone. Anyway, we texted as soon as I had the smart sim. He seems alright, but then… I thought again. He’s younger. So scrap it.

5. Joel is a friend of a friend’s cousin. I was wondering why that friend gave my Globe number knowing I’m in a relationship of that sort. Anyway, he’s quite a time killer and he asks many questions. I tried to answer almost all with honesty but of course it’s not good to be a tell-it-all. He has also a Sun Sim and we often talk with that. But it also ended the next year.

6. Jospeph is another guy who has smart sim. I’m not quite familiar with him, but I’m pretty sure I chatted with him at YM’s Metro Manila Barkada room (I don’t know what number). Ended quickly. Not quite interesting.

7. Light was his nickname, and I don’t even remember if he told me his real name. We met at Japanese Animation 3, and become instant buddies even before I loved Death Note. I thought he’s Kira Yamato, so I reacted and he then replied he’s from Death Note. Okay so there was instant connection. We’re accidentally both Freshmen in college and we had lots of commonalities. He got my number and we exchanged a few words at mobile. Did not last though.

8. His name is quite weird, but I guess it’s a nick. He was called Milez, and he’s from Bearshare. We talked a bit in chat, but mostly we’re mobile. He’s actually Globe. Another guy my age, we had some things that are common. But in the end, it wasn’t that useful.

9. Riou (Paulo) is someone I met during my 1st year high school days. We had lots in common that time—extreme addiction for anime songs, current situation… but we really had to know those when we’re in 4th year, after a brief YM chat (we’re already on each others’ lists). We had a lot of fun times talking in our Sun Sims, even texted using globe, and that happened till summer before College. I heard he got admitted at DLSU and is still there. Happy for him, but now we do not talk.

10. Tetsuya Akiziwa was his said name, and he told me he’s a half-Japanese. He’s the only guy I met with eyeball, and the only guy I talked to using internet phone. He’s actually hot, if I may judge his looks. Using a globe number, we texted to meet at BK Robinsons Galleria. I was at that time with my boyfriend. He knew I have one, but he still pursued me. Anyways, I didn’t agree to him other than the EB. We were watching Beowulf that time, and it was reserved seating, so he chose to sit at the seat beside me. We texted during the film (I guess because of the lighting of our mobiles my boyfriend noticed we knew each other). He gave me a ribbon pendant (an accessory,) and he even calls our house after that. Not that it gave him false hope when I met him, because I clearly told him that I can’t cheat on my boyfriend as he wants me to. A war between our ideals broke our communication and that was it.

11. Vincent Yang was a catchy person’s name in my list. I knew him also way back, maybe during 2nd year or 3rd year High School. We just had a long talk when we’re in college. He also studies at DLSU that time, and he had a Sun sim. We talk, text during class. I must admit that among all these guys, he’s the one I’m really attracted to. He looks pretty fine for a Chinito. Haha. But both of us are in relationships. We had thoughts of giving it up… Oh well, I had sins because of him. I better not tell it here then.

12. Zeal will be the last one I could remember. He’s someone from Bearshare that eventually was added to my YM. We also texted and he’s Globe. Nothing much that make him be remembered.

Right now, I have no connection in all of them except that they’re in my mobile phone (numbers) and in my YM list. There are others like them but didn’t get my number. That made my Friends list in YM go as high as 400. These guys are just to fill up the emptiness I felt about my relationship way back in 2006 and 2007. Well, I kinda got over the problems now. I bet there could only be a few guys that bug me now—like some seniors I had in college, former classmates, anime convention instant friends, people I meet at random places… even current classmates. They add some spice to my life, and my then boring relationship.

Anyway, upon admitting I had some connection with these people, I should say I didn’t have any firm relations with them. It’s just a sort of next level friendship, but wait… no romance involved.

You know, I might have not told in my blog honestly back then what actually bugs me and made me feel that relationships are worthless. It has something to do with my relationship. But now, I could say we got over those hurdles as if we’re starting anew. We suddenly went back to what we were before when we just became the so-called couple: chatting endlessly, texting, seeing each other more frequently, doing video calls… it was some sort of an overhaul. Maybe because we’re a bit more intimate when it comes to some things now. I guess I don’t need anyone to analyze it for me, unlike last sem. Somehow, I’m sure of something: I’m having the time of my life now that I enjoy it. I find things happening now very pleasing. It’s like I’m dreaming but I’m not. This better continue, or I might do something more stupid than before.

Yeah, I love this certain person now—I could practically say that—that’s why I can’t do anything as weird as what I did before now.

Some Stupid Thing I’ve Done

To start off, I’ll tell you about something that happened earlier. I suddenly remembered Eddie Gil while staring blankly at my anime tapes section just below our Cassette Tape Deck. It was the memories of his single entitled “Pelukang Itim” that flooded my mind. I was so fond of music, especially those that make me laugh out. When it was summer of 2004, I recorded that song. And later on, it was included on his debut album “Pinoy Idol?”. The connection? I became his fan before I bought that CD. Yeah, talk about stupidity.

Anyway, that time JM and I spent time talking a lot and hanging-out so much even though he’s studying at RHS already. One afternoon, we’ve researched him and there we found about one of his (Eddie Gil) addresses. So we had a little plan. That is, to send a fan letter professing our utmost support in his greatness as a singer and an actor (he has a movie!), and also, asking for a copy of his CD. God. We were so adamant and serious back then!

So what happened next is that the letter was composed, printed and placed in a white envelope—ready for mailing. As I’ve said, we were so serious about this, so we decided to actually send it through a mailing center beside PCA (my ex-school back then) and in front of RHS (JM’s high school that time). We eagerly spread the news to Kog and had her join us while we do the breath-taking embarrassing moment of our lives.

Guess what? She was laughing so hard that she can’t contain her amusement. We eventually did it, making the people at that mailing center puzzled. We have no clue that it’s actually not going to work. When JM and I decide to do something, we become overly optimistic of its outcome to the point of imagining a whole lot of things.

Oh yes, it was a failure. Not that the mail was returned, but probably it was not read by our idol. Too unfortunate for us. Oh well, we didn’t get to see his film either. In short, we haven’t accomplished a thing about our fanaticism. Then and there, the EG addiction flew away. As simple as that… :D

Simply Addictive

Songs of the Japanese people had invaded my mind since the beginning of my otaku career. Everyday, it's sure for a Japanese song to play continuously in my mind. That is what we termed as a "virus" when we were in 5th grade. Back then, the term "LSS" or "Last Song Syndrome" hasn't been coined yet. And also, back then, we rely on Tape recordings or Cassette Tapes to be exact for our song needs. We record the TV songs of the anime series we loved to watch.

The simplemindedness we had was trivial to how we loved the Japanese culture. Oftentimes, like how the fan my friend JM was for TTK to the point of having dreams with them also happened to me when we were 10 years old. I told Kog and Jeanne Frances every single Weiss Kreuz crossover with Escaflowne dreams I had, and those dreams occur in episodes. My imagination ran wild during those times. As I recall, there was this weird dream about the Weiss Kreuz guys being chased by Merle of Escaflowne, and they were... selling deodorants. I could only laugh at the plots of my dreams. To us, they must be real. And they must be happening.

Singing anime songs had been a daily ritual for us back then. Whether it be a solo, duet, or trio we would sing our hearts while remembering the episode yesterday, chatting on it even through the telephone. Anime endings or finales would make our hearts cry our and of course, literally we cried. Sentimentality among us ruled as we reminisce the episodes, or even as we talked of our dreams about them. They seemed real in our own paradise.

Indeed, anime has brought us all of the happiness we could remember with our strong and close ties with each other. And through the years, we still remember what kinds of addicts we were. During our high school we were separated upon my transfer to another school. But we never forget. Oftentimes, our topic would still be the same on our phone calls and YM sessions. We never forgot about them. If an anime character we loved celebrates his or her birthday, we greet each other with that. They are all special to us. Hence, simply addictive would be the term. Over and over, these things fill our hearts with little joys.

We love anime. :)

NaKakaPrAnInG ITOOO!!!

OMG!

Kahapon, or should I say KAGABI, after na napigilan ang aking paggala sa mall ay napadpad ako sa Tektite Tower sa Emerald Ave, Ortigas. Umattend kmi ng 1st Synergy Rally thingy with the invites n bgy ng Ninang Janet ko.

Shucks, HYPER ang mga pips dun!

Anyway, enjoying din for my part kasi nakakatuwa ung speakers, although di ako makarelate sa ibang pinagsasabi nila. Kasama ko ung friend ko from my childhood (up to now siguro) si "Patty".

Okay naman dun, pero we need to leave before the lecture ends.

(Hello? 8 PM na kasi! May papanoorin pa kami ni Ate Tess ung MEMORIES OF BALI at ung STAINED GLASS sa KAPAMILYA channel... Channel 08 {or 02})

Using my POWER na Tumakbo ng sobrang BILIS pag may PAPANOORIN, in time naman ang pag-uwi ko. Thanks sa ANNOYING SHOW NA "Spirits" (na nakakainis and PANGIT ang ENDING pati ung STORY PLOT) (Sorry sa fanatics ng "Spirits", ang sarap kasing OKRAYIN nun eh), Wala pa pala ung Memories of Bali.

Nakahinga me ng malalim. At last, kahit pagod ako sa pagtakbo, what's important naman is NAKAUWI ang desperate girl na katulad namin ni Ate Tess.

~~ The truth is, alam ko na po ang ending ng Yurihwa (Stained Glass Window, Rationalization) at Memories of Bali (What Happened in Bali). Pero ang mga cute RyanEri scenes ang type ko, pati ung GerryJamie happenings.

Whatever!