Do Dreams Tell the Future?

Would you believe this if I tell you?

My dog just died earlier today, and before that happened, I dreamed...

In my dream, I was on top of a white building. On the rooftop.
I just noticed that my dog, Heidi, was trying to jump her way up to where I was standing. I glanced down, and saw her futile attempts.

I tried to reach out to her and pull her to where I am using my right hand. I did manage to grab her left paw, but it slipped.

Eventually, she fell down... and I saw how she falls... in slow motion. When she landed, there was no blood. Just her body, and she's lying helplessly.

I can't do anything. I stood frozen, watching how she tried to move...

Then I woke up......
I was actually crying.

That dream was last Tuesday night. Wednesday passed, and then Thursday came.
Today is Thursday, and she died.

Just like in my dream......

Strange, isn't it?

Yokoso 2008!

Yokoso!

 

This
is the Japanese word for “Welcome”. I hereby welcome 2008 with this first post,
and this pilot post will tackle a lot of things in my thoughts today.

 

Mirumo de Pon! Charming made its way
to its final week. It was weird though, for the final episode is to be shown on
the Monday of next week. I didn’t consider that week as the finale since it
will only show one episode. It obviously saddened me, however, I recorded the
Tagalog dubbed from Hero TV (is it yet another illegal thing?) to make it as my
own copy. This time, I haven’t found the torrent for seasons 2 and 4.

 

As for this day, GLOBE Telecoms, my
current Service Provider, had a major problem with their system. I haven’t used it for several hours this day.
I was so… PISSED. Yes, you’ve heard it right. I was very angry. I almost gave
up the GLOBE SIM I have. So now, I am thinking of disposing it for real.

 

Lately, I’ve been hanging out in the
CAL Library a lot. I’ve read all the Classical Mythology books on one shelf,
and some number of famous novels by Japanese authors. Still, I am not
satisfied. My frustration today is to learn Hangul. I still cannot get the way
to create syllables. My head is spinning whenever I see the Hangul characters.

 

So
then, this shall end my “current affairs” post. See you next time, my dear blog!

Random Nothingness

Nothingness. Loss. Writer's block. Forgetfulness...


Are these words similar to each other? To what degree?

I'm feeling a bit down lately in my mind's system. This is not emotionally, since I've been so cheery ever since Mirumo de Pon!'s 4th Season has yet again been aired to Philippine television, thanks to Hero TV (Sky Cable channel 44). Still, I can't help but become at a loss of ideas in my mind. I encountered forgetfulness, yet there are certain lines that were built while I was spending spare time looking at the ceiling's nothingness. Is this what they call the "writer's block"?

Setting aside that, things in Mirumo de Pon! are getting better for Katie and Dylan, yet are about to get complicated. It's the big irony. I've always, always, always imagined my life to become like hers. What an inevitable fantasy, still fantasizing... waiting... and waiting for me to have someone like Dylan. It's OBVIOUSLY elusive. Seen in Mirumo de Pon!'s story is all about love in many, different ways.

Love is such a banal thing for me. Everyone shows affection, but it blatantly shows that not everyone gets affection in return. Why does opportunity to be happy not for everyone?

I wonder what the logic behind everything in this world is...

Have you ever felt that you suddenly lost affection for someone?


No more happy feelings with simple thoughts of that person, no more smiles by the mere mentioning of his name. If there is such a feeling, can you force to experience this kind of feeling for someone you want to forget?

There are people you want and you feel more than want. Someone from your past that you still want. Years and years have passed, still, you actually LOVE the same person. You started to forget, to run away. You encounter someone else, still it has no effect. You can't seem to erase everything.

But the worst part is, HE HAS NOT YET entered your life. He's a mere person, not a stranger. You know him, he knows you. You secretly want to share something with him, the best things in life you can imagine.

Only if you can talk to him, if only, only he could hear your voice.

Sadly, the sarcasm of life remains. You have nowhere to run. If a new door opens, you hastily come in, but still, those feelings you found cannot compensate nor surpass every single feeling you want to leave behind. You don't want to hurt the person who shows you affection.

Is there any way you can get through?

Mirumo de Pon Season 4 COUNTDOWN!

ミル。。。ミル。。。ミルモでポン！

Haay eto nanaman ang excitement level ko, tumataas to the highest peak! Grabe, after watching a load of AMV's, medyo nagka-hint na ako on what's going to happen on Mirumo de Pon! Season 4. Although kailangang kailangan ko na ng SPOILERS, wala naman akong makuhanan. I tried Yahoo! Answers, but so far no one had answer my question.

Oh well, basing from the scenes on the AMV's, I guess na 100 % Setsu and Kaede nga. Me vids pa ngang "First Kiss" nila e. Haaaaay.... ngapala, tomorrow na daw end/finale ng Pangarap na Bituin. Aus din yon... pero MIRUMO PARIN!

Hontou no Kimochi (My True Feelings)

日本モード:

私はとても孤独今である。罪があり、無感覚。私は信頼に何をすればいいか知らない。私は実際に自分自身を知らない。

私はなぜ前にと異なっている感じるか。幸せがある理由の多くがあるけれども私はこの孤独に残る。

私はそれに耐えることができない。それは私を... 傷つける

 

한국 형태:

나는 이렇게 고독하다 지금. 유죄와 마비되는. 나는
신망에 무엇을 하기 위하여 모른다. 나는 조차
진짜로 모른다.

나는 왜 전에보다는 다른가 느끼는가? 행복한
있는 이유의 제비 있는다 그러나 나는 이 고독안에 남아
있는다.

나는 그것을 품을. 그것은 나를... 낙상한다

 

中国方式:

我现在是很孤独的。有罪和麻木。我不知道什么做, 对信任。我真正地甚而不认识自己。

为什么我感到不同比以前? 有许多原因愉快我保留在这孑然。

أسلوب [أربيك]
:

أنا هكذا وحيدة حاليّا. مذنبة وخدرة. أنا لا أعرف ماذا أن يتمّ ، الذي إلى ثقة. يعرفبنفسي أنا حتّى لا حقّا.

لماذا أنا أشعر مختلفة من من قبل ؟ هناك حصص الأسباب أن يكون سعيدة مع ذلك يبقى أنا في هذا عزلة.

أنا يستطيع لا يحمل هو. هو آذىني…

TIme's Up!

Since my post is all about L-O-V-E aka Romance, I'll use a pink colored font this time.

I've been thinking about the status of my love life since Mid-2007. I encountered some lapses in judgment, and it led me to confusion. But then, things usually fluctuate; just as my heart is. It's just a weird thing about me now; for ever since I was introduced to this kind of thing, I hastily removed it from my system, consequently turning down suitors telling them I am absolutely not interested. Breaking hearts of men may become guilt-laden at times. Going back to my experiences, I never had a broken heart.

Being in a relationship as a newbie seemed fine. However, in my case, I still haven't forget about my crush or maybe "First Love" during the relationship. It haunts me and it makes me feel weirder. I don't know why, but that person, although we didn't share something in the past except being mere classmates, remained in my heart--- or in my mind.

Enrollment nanaman

Hay naku... bad trip! Bukas kelangan nanamang gumising ng maaga. I wonder kung ano nanamang pahirap ang mararanasan ko tomorrow.

Kasi naman di pa ko nkakakuha ng GE na MST! Kulang pa ko ng PE! Pano un? E wala na raw manual enlistment. Lahat computerized na ba, pati nga ung prerog e. Siguro magulo nanaman to ganyan naman talaga e. Makatapos kea akong magenrol? Sana naman no!

Asar.