What On Earth...?

Somehow, I'm liking this violet color. I've used this font color just lately. Oh well, that's not what I want to talk about right now.

Hazel-PC reborn is being kept somewhere in my parents' room now. It has been 2 days actually. I want to thank someone for coming yesterday which made me go out my room and stop the hikikomori mode. And of course, will I forget my new dog Shabutaro? He has made me happy, even for a bit.

Still, I haven't gotten over the loss of Etty-chan (Pretty). I sooo miss that dog. No matter what I do, I can't seem to love Shabutaro the way I loved Etty-chan. Grr. It pains me to think of that cute dog. I wonder where on earth Etty is.

The use of Mr-PC-Reborn (this desktop PC) takes so much of my time. It's still responding slowly. I wonder what sort of repair must be done to keep this optimized like my laptop.... or at least to attain half its speed.

I sooo hate what's going on in my life lately. :(

Shabutaro

Shabutaro. That's the peculiar name I gave our new dog even though he has his own name written in his "papers". The name is something I picked up from Rave Master (Groove Adventure Rave)'s 4th anime episode. Haru named Plue "Shabutaro" before he met Shiba and after he "fished" Plue from the sea.

Like Plue, our Shabutaro doesn't speak. He is weird-looking, being a part of the Pug family (huh?) and he doesn't even bark! He's so annoying sometimes because he's too playful. My stamina doesn't work well when I'm with Shabutaro. I wonder if he also likes sweets and lollipops.

His original name is Lassy. For me, it's so girlish. Lass=girl. And to name a male dog like that is something weird. So then, I decided to keep on calling him Shabutaro. And now, he's used to it. When I yell out "Shabutaro!", he looks my way. I'm glad it worked.

Some posts that I didn't publish

Here is the list of posts (With dates) that I made and decided that it would be or it might be published later (or definitely not!):

	2008/12/12	To Love and To be Loved	ldgsjssm	Uncategorized	No Tags	Unpublished
	2008/12/06	Enroll Na!	ldgsjssm	Uncategorized	No Tags	Unpublished
	2008/11/12	I’m Too Happy, I Cannot Believe It…!	ldgsjssm	Uncategorized	No Tags	Unpublished
	2008/09/26	Leo Ku	ldgsjssm	Uncategorized	No Tags	Unpublished
	2008/03/22	To my dearest “hot weather”, I hope you get this message…	ldgsjssm	Implied Post

Ways to call it Quits

Quits:adjective- Owing or being owed nothing: even¹, quit, square.

I bring ye news. This is not an old news coming from me, but today I duly make it something official. It seemed as if I'm Buddha-- an enlightened one. I've dreamed of the Four Noble Truths in my life earlier.

1. Life means suffering.

True to what has happening, each day in my life happens to be each day of suffering. Well, it doesn't look like it but deep inside of me, I'm tortured by something. I won't tell.

2. The origin of suffering is attachment.

Attachment. Yup, since I was attached, I can't go nuts with my single best pals and can't flirt with anyone hot and available on conventions and parties. It's really the attachment that binds me and my freedom literally and figuratively.

3. The cessation of suffering is attainable.

Finally, I've decided to remove someone so as to delete the cause of my suffering.

4. The path to the cessation of suffering.

And upon removing him in my life leads to loneliness of a bit and of course hurt feelings. Anyway, after all this, it will be a meaningful and wonderful life-- not something that came out all of a sudden and ruined my whole being.

Anyway, all of these Noble Truths were encompassed in my dream earlier. Not as directly stated like that, but of course in different situations. I extremely believe about my dreams telling me some important thing or decision to do. It's been proven a lot of times (you can see my older posts here as reference).

So after all the mumbo jumbo... I realized it's over.

And then I was thinking on ways how to say it in a proper way. And I couldn't. Thus, only the title of this post must be made sense.

Sad

A lot of things happened today. I want to forget the reason of my loneliness. Now I won’t be able to see my dog. Or rather other’s dog. It makes me a lot more dramatic. I never thought of what could possibly happen. And here it was, and there it went. Oh well. We really realize something’s worth once it’s gone. And it is possibly true for everything we have. Just like what happened and or happens to me. I can’t stop thinking of the matter now. I even had dreams about it. Maybe it’s just not for me. So everything went out of hand. Now I am with nothing left. It’s so empty. I feel something trembling within me. I should’ve appreciated things as they were before. Now it’s too late to repent on it. Well I did nothing wrong. Did I? It was just some lack of appreciation. I didn’t intend to lose every nice thing at the first place. Oh yeah. I didn’t want it to become related to me either. I just lost my mind that time. It seems like this post has a lot of confusion within. I sure guess no one bothers this anyway. Just like what I’ve done before. But all of it was a cover-up. Oh yes, I am duly affected. It’s never been this bad. But forgetting must be on its way too. And even though I try to think about it a hundred times, it has happened and it was over. That’s what I see, at least. And that’s how it appeared to me. Oblivion. It’s such a nice word with a nice ring on it. If everything will be settled with purely oblivion aka forget something… then it would be nice for everyone. I keep mentioning the word nice. It kinda reminds me of something or someone. Since this is a sort of mixed-up post, I don’t care about the layout and words I am using anymore. See, it’s useless to think of something you terminally wouldn’t want to think of. And since it’s all stupid, I could say I had been stupid. So stupid. This was meant to happen. It just waited a little longer. Soon enough things were obvious. And when that time comes, I don’t think I could just smile at it. Since I was left alone, I could care less. Or will I start bawling now?

 

 

		I will marry Pchy.
		After a wild honeymoon, We will settle down in Tokyo, Japan in our fabulous Mansion.
		We will have 4 kid(s) together.
		Our family will zoom around in a Royal Blue Lamborghini Gallardo.
		I will spend my days as a Public Servant, and live happily ever after.

Thai Invasion

It's not that I've changed my preferences. I only added a bit to it.

If you were one of the people who observed and have visited (of course) my profile, you might have noticed that my location now is Krung Thep, Bangkok, Thailand. My "hometown" is still Tokyo, Japan (in my dreams). This signifies my newest addiction, or what I termed now as the "Thai Invasion".

Several reasons became the impetus for the addition of Thai in my music and hot guys preference. First off is Pchy or Witwisit Hirayanwongkul of the August Band. He is, by far, the hottest guy actor and singer I've seen in Thai sector. Next would be the songs of August Band, starting with Pchy's songs of course. Finally, the beginning of everything, JM's persistence and continuous influence. Haha. I can't get through my hatred of Pchy's debut film (The Love of Siam, where his role is GAY) without him. Thanks, dude!

And because of that, I already had this research mania on Thai culture which includes the following: Music, Language, and Literature.

If this mania is seasonal like my Cantonese Pop addiction, we'll see about that.

Kimi Ga Iru: Who are the guys behind this wonderful J-rock song?!

I'm feeling restless. It's because up to now, I do not have any other information about the band Galla who sung Initial D Second Stage songs "Kimi ga Iru" and "Kiseki no Hana". The guys who sung that, aka the band itself Galla, has no link or whatsoever that I could find and grasp. Too bad, for when I watched the MV of "Kimi ga Iru" (in Initial D, the ending song), I found them cute (especially the lead singer). I resolved into getting mp3s, thanks to the ID collection several years ago... but still, I want to know about the band.

My resolve is that I'll ask some forums and the Yahoo! Answers. If answers will come out, I'm lucky. If not, I won't stop researching!

My inspiration in doing so is my recent ClubBox discovery of "Freedom!" mp3.

With hard work and enthusiasm, I could find out almost everything!

Haha. ^_^