Backtrack

For a change, it could be said that we’re better than before. Or maybe more matured. Something like that sort. But to me, it’s as if we’re going circles in a cycle—and up to this time, I can’t determine whether it’s vicious or detrimental-lovely or sentimental.

Nobody can ever predict the future, but my instincts have gone to the next level. Gut feeling has been more reliable, subconscious has told me more realities beforehand. I could even detect stuff which are hidden and in one out of the blue choice, I could get what I wanted. Life has never been this lucky and happy for the past 19 years of my existence.

Could it be the booming financial status I’m currently enjoying—with all the perks, stuff and gadgets I get from my parents—or the less attention and more trust I garnered from them? Which one of those is it, I don’t really mind. What’s more important is I enjoy my life, at least while I’m still free to do my thing and the like.

2008 being over and my Mirumo madness being gone, I could now focus on what must be or might be the essential things in life. Nevertheless, studies must or should go hand in hand with this. Still, I could say that I find it hard to prioritize school than merry-making. It’s uncontrollable, and the addiction I had now is about the fun I experience in the present so I totally forget what’s about to come.

Clairvoyance and other unexplainable happenings are all gifts, it’s for me to use maybe for myself. Funny how I thought of it that way; could it be just a simple co-incidence just like before? I can really not distinguish fantasy from reality. They seemed to have merged as one in my life. What I perceive is like a dream floating around me: my life, it’s like a fantasy: a work of fiction. When will things be as real as reality?