Inkheart

Obviously, I failed to post yesterday because I was out and when I came back, there were lots of things that I did with someone. Anyway, setting aside the happenings for the past 17 hours, I’m going to tell of the latest movie I’ve watched: Inkheart.

The plot of the story is so great and somewhat predictable, but never fails to still give the element of surprise. It’s somewhat like Fushigi Yuugi, since the book was read and the person entered the book—but the main difference is that in Inkheart, there are talented or rather gifted people who could forcibly send someone back and out of a book.

This movie gave me 100% and above entertainment and the sense of adventure. The soundtrack is pretty much as great as the film itself, matching the music perfectly with the scenes. The characters are so powerful that they’ve dwelled in my head for quite a long time. This is definitely a must-see for all ages.

141 Madness

Umpisahan naman natin ang post with one of Manny H’s latest press statements regarding Zelly’s comeback with Pchy…

"Natotowa ako subra sa balekan ng labtem nena Zil at Petse. Sana toloy na toloy na to. Si Zil napakabyotepol nya ngayung gabe sa kanyang syemereng guld gawn. At si Petse naman pagkagwapu sa kanyang toksidu. At kay Husi naman, hoy broho ka tomegel ka na. Patahemeken mo na se Bros Leh at kamokha mo naman sya... yong aptir purti diys ba."

Me kasama pa yang parinig sa isang taong nanlait kay Pchy lately… :)

Yes, tomorrow is my favorite day of the Acad week and of course, my last exam for this week too. 141 exams. This is way uncool. Kumpara sa 121, di ako kumuha ng rushed readings dito. Solely aasa ako sa notes ko… na makokonsider nga bang notes?

Good luck to me. And to the other one as well. Basta. :D

Impatience

Almost an hour was spent waiting for the jeeps to move in front of the LRT Santolan Station. Almost an hour was wasted in my precious time. Damn. I’m going out later, and that is what comes to me? I’m yet again becoming more impatient. Yeah, my day today was filled with thoughts of things far away, and thus making me want to move the hands of the clock just to finish another subject. Luckily, there seems to have no class in 113.

A sad news from Emma came to me that she didn’t make it for internship this summer. She then assured me that she will just take electives in summer instead, so I thought that if she didn’t make it for internship, I won’t as well. In what I know, Emma’s grades are way better than me. She has not quite garnered a lot of F’s like me, so I think my chance is so slim that really, I’ll finally have nothing to do in summer of 2009… unless I changed my mind.

As I’ve thought of those things while waiting for the jeep to move, I think I don’t really want to do something, or spend the time waiting for someone on summer. I will just have to resort to going to a summer class of probably 9 units. Okay, if not granted, then it would be 6 units of MST and a PE, or an elective and a GE, or 2 electives. Whatever. I just have to go to school in order to have money.a

Words of Wisdom

"Penapanalangen ku na sana magbalekan ang labtem nena Zil at Petse. Kase sayang selang dalawa. At ikay Dyi-em, pwide ba mag-engat ka naman sa epaparis mo kay Zil para hende na sela mag-isplet."

Idagdag pa natin to:

"Huy betewan mu sya! Dili ako makapayag na maponta ka sa lalakeng yan, Idriana! At kaw naman dodong, kahet mag-enum ka ng tablitang Alaksan mamamaga yang ngoso mo pag hende ka lomayo!"

Hay, san ka pa? Galing talaga ni Sir Manny H.—ang dakilang PE teacher ng mga educational institutions na pinapasukan ko… :D

Pantanggal ng bwisit sa isang tao. Hmp. Kaasar siya…

Geh yun lang… :)

 

Loathing My DVD Drive/Writer

Could this day get any worse?

I’m so stuck at episode 10 of SMM. Dang. I burned it through my obviously harmful DVD writer attached to my laptop. Dang again. This always happens: the DVD gets scratched by the hardware itself! Grrr… so annoying! The drive requires the DVD to attach to its round thingy, and it slides therein, scratching the DVD aimlessly. I hate to say this, but I really, really want to dispose this junk in my laptop. Acer used a very destructive DVD writer as part of its nice laptop. Grr… wait till I avail my Bluray Drive, you ****in’ drive!!

I Dreamed of my Teeth Pulled Out

Oh yeah. I don’t know why I do wonder about this, but long time ago, I heard that when you dreamed of your tooth being pulled out, it means death of someone… and so I tried researching about my dream last night that went like this:

I had my front teeth (the one beside the 2 larger ones on the right side) gone, and I could even tell that it bled a little. I could taste blood, and it’s as if something’s about to grow back there (another tooth, I suppose). And then the other one was the large molar at the back of my right side. This time, I can see the tooth clearly and it’s large and funky—it has spikes and as if it was designed to be an ornament. I stared at that tooth for a while, and I touched the gum from where it was pulled out. That one was forcedly pulled out, while the other (the one at front and that I didn’t see) just fell out of its place. I was talking to my mother about the ‘funky tooth’ as I stared at it all the time… and then the dream ended.

What I saw at Yahoo! Answers didn’t quite satisfy my curiosity:

I was watching a programme last week and it said if you dream of anything to do with your teeth it possibly means your slightly vain or maybe feeling slightly self conscious. –michela m

i think i've read that dreaming about teeth is a sign of being sexually frustrated. –applexdapple

You are going to be forced to do something that you won't like, but it might be good for you. –richardyarnell

Dream of teeth pulling out is a symbol of losing control. There are certains in your life that you can't contro of. Projecting teeth being pulled out shows you that you are out of control. It could involve communication, things you want people to be aware, and very often you are ignored. –YourDreamDoc

Best Answer - Chosen by Asker

Teeth can be a symbolic reference to your sense of confidence and competence in the waking world. Losing teeth heralds a time of transition between one phase of life and another. It's about losing innocence or rather becoming more mature; emotonally, spiritually, psychologically. It's about changes happening on their own accord all in good timing.
When you smile, this is what people see. When you choose to pull your teeth - this could signify that you are trying to please others with your "appearance" or rather, you are consciously making an effort to improve yourself in regards to how others perceive you; emotionally, spiritually, mentally and even physically. -StarStuffs ☆♥☆

Okay. So in all of these, I don’t seem to relate to any situation. I wonder when it takes effect, or something like that. So I decided to check on other sites:

TEETH:

My most popular requests for dream interpretation are by far, dreams about teeth falling out. Apparently this is quite disturbing to people who have this dream...they simply MUST know what it means! In my experience, a dream about one's teeth falling out usually symbolizes that the dreamer is having a challenge getting their voice heard, or feelings acknowledged. This may be referring to their conversations with a particular person such as their significant other, boss, or friend; or can be generalized for people who are shy, to include almost everyone they come in contact with. The dreamer needs to brush up on conversational skills, believe in the value of their own opinion, learn how to be less intimidated by aggressive people, and become more assertive and make their voice heard. Once they do that, this dream (which is a common recurring dream) should evolve & show improvement...or disappear altogether.

Although most people I hear from seem to find the above interpretation of the teeth theme fits their situation, there have been a few who think it's not quite right for them. I received the following email from a savvy visitor who eloquently shared with me what she believes the symbol means for her, and I think it's so good that I want to share it with all of you. Dream symbols must be personalized for each individual person, so general interpretations don't always fit the bill, like I've said repeatedly throughout this site. Please remember this, and remember to interpret your entire dream's context and not just an isolated symbol. -http://dreamemporium.com

Teeth dreams  - "My Teeth Are Falling Out"

Dreams that your teeth are falling out are the most common dreams we here at Dream Moods receive. Common dream scenarios include having your teeth crumbling in your hands or your teeth falling out one by one with just a light tap. Such dreams are not only horrifying and shocking, but often leaves the dreamer with a lasting image of the dream. So what does it mean?

One theory is that dreams about your teeth reflect your anxiety about your appearance and how others perceive you. Sadly, we live in a world where good looks are valued highly and your teeth play an important role in conveying that image. Teeth are used in the game of flirtations, whether it be a dazzling and gleaming smile or affectionate necking. These dreams may stem from a fear of your sexual impotence or the consequences of getting old. Teeth are an important feature of our attractiveness and presentation to others. Everybody worries about how they appear to others. Caring about our appearance is natural and healthy.

Another rationalization for these falling teeth dream may be rooted in your fear of being embarrassed or making a fool of yourself in some specific situation. These dreams are an over-exaggeration of your worries and anxiety.

Other Perspectives

A scriptural interpretation for bad or falling teeth indicate that you are putting your faith, trust, and beliefs in what man thinks rather than in the word of God. The bible says that God speaks once, yea twice in a dream or a vision in order to hide pride from us, to keep us back from the pit, to open our ears (spiritually) and to instruct and correct us.

In the Greek culture, when you dream about loose, rotten, or missing teeth, it indicates that a family member or close friend is very sick or even near death.

According to the Chinese, there is a saying that your teeth will fall out if your are telling lies.

It has also been said that if you dream of your teeth falling out, then it symbolizes money. This is based on the old tooth fairy story. If you lose a tooth and leave it under the pillow, a tooth fairy would bring you money.

Source: http://dreammoods.com

For one tooth to fall out, foretells disagreeable news; if two, it denotes unhappy states that the dreamer will be plunged into from no carelessness on his part. If three fall out, sickness and accidents of a very serious nature will follow.To dream that you pull one of your teeth and lose it, and feeling within your mouth with your tongue for the cavity, and failing to find any, and have a doctor for the same, but to no effect, leaving the whole affair enveloped in mystery, denotes that you are about to enter into some engagement which does not exactly please you, and which you decide to ignore, but will later take it up and secretly prosecute it to your own disquieting satisfaction and under the suspicion of friends.Source: 10 000 Dream Interpretations, by Gustavus Hindman Miller

Nah. I got enough of these interpretations. I’ll just let it be. :D

Whatever happens, I still have my real, tangible teeth here!

121 Pressure

Shucks. Eto na yon, this is it. Kainis. Ewan ko ba pero mas takot na yata ako sa 121. Sabagay, mas may alam yata ako sa 151—pano kasi nangalap din naman ako ng readings sa 151… e sa 121, di na nga ako pumapasok, nagrerecite, at siyempre, walang readings since November 2008. Three days ago lang ako nakakuha! Mantakin mo yon?

Tapos, ang GOOD news pa dito e bukas na ang aming bonggang-bonggang midterms. Haha. Ano kaya maisasagot ko? Hmn… funny that I didn’t worry about this earlier. Hehe.

So nagmamarathon nga pala ako ng Sana Maulit Muli… nice to go back to the oldies. Hehe.

Oh well. Bagsak na kung bagsak. My bad. :D

Failing the PA 151 Exam

I’ve written a blog post of almost the same title with regards to Math 17 ages ago. Yes, I had another prediction, and now since I feel that I’m a clairvoyant of my own kind I announce that I foresaw that I’m going to fail. Hypothetically basing my hunch with my previous quizzes, there’s no doubt at all that I’ll get a grade lower than 60% in this midterm exam.

Let’s face the reality: I do not get the assigned readings before classes, I do not regularly attend class. I don’t even read the readings even if I have them, and I cram for tomorrow’s exam. I even wonder why I could still have time blogging and chatting now that most of my classmates tell me that tomorrow’s the worst. Okay, so the stress might not have come yet to my system.

Well, for one, I don’t even have faith that I’ll pass 151 as a subject. So why worry if you already know the outcome and when you have nothing to do about it?

I’m kinda pessimistic here, but we all have to accept the reality. Reality-bending only works in manga and anime. But for my school life, it’s definitely hopeless—unless I pull out another miracle like in my Pol Sc 11…

Oh, Yay!

Is tonight my lucky night?

Finally, after deciding to visit the SARS Fansubs, I saw their subbed Hana Dan Final 2008 .torrent link! Ooooh! I can finally watch it without parts… fully saved in my PC! How happy could anyone like me get? Since I’m going gaga over Hana Dan Korean downloads lately, I haven’t focused on my search for this movie torrent. Finally, it came to me unexpectedly. Again, Kami-sama domo arigatou gozaimasu!

CHU!

Addicted to posting at this blog. Am I forgetting some notebook I used to get excited of filling the pages with my very own thoughts and handwriting?

True enough, it’s easier to write here (or rather type) using my laptop. I could occasionally search for some things and chat with someone and also type my thoughts here. My post numbers skyrocketed because of Windows Live Writer being incorporated with my 3 blog accounts: Windows Live Spaces, Friendster Blogs and LiveJournal.

I’ve already reached the I-didn’t-thought-of 200th post earlier. Dang, in 4 years, I could not believe all I was able to write was 200 and to think that there are multiple posts in one day. Hmn. I had this period in time back then that I didn’t use the PC—was that the great depression or the DSL blues period or maybe the grand dial-up problem or better yet the PC slow-down?

Whatever terms I called it, it simply states that I could live without the PC. Oooh. Maybe that’s why I had posts in my blue book slash notebooks. Now I get it. And finally I understood the relation. Haha. So bakaish.

 

Trulalu Ba Ito?

You Are Unique and Inspired

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are very intuitive and wise. You understand the world better than most people. You also have a very active imagination. You often get carried away with your thoughts. You are prone to a little paranoia and jealousy. You sometimes go overboard in interpreting signals.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

BLUEtooth

BLUE ang kulay ng buton nya sa gilid ng laptop ko. Kaso malaki ang problema kapag gusto ko siyang gamitin. Oo, nagkukulay asul nga yung buton, pero yung driver sa PC ko di naman mabasa. Unknown device daw, hmp. Kakainis. Kahit makailang uninstall ako e automatic naman siyang nag rere-install. Hmp ulit. Sobra na to. Kala ko pag maaayos este mapapagawa sa Acer ito ok na. Nareformat na ko’t lahat, wala parin. Hopeless na to.

Kanina, kagagaling ko lang sa Kaharian ng Kadiliman, este sa UP Diliman. Nilibot namin ng konti yon, ala tour bus. Sinariwa namin ulit ang mga building kung saan ako nag-aral noon… at kung saan ibinagsak ko ang mga subject ko don. Siyempre, makakalimutan ko ba naman yon? Lalo na yung building ng kahirapang mag-enroll—sa Melchor Hall. Hehe. Hanggang ngayon, hirap parin sila pagdating ng June, November o April. Haha. Bahala nga yang mga Eng’g people na yan.

Naalala ko lang yung me kinalaman sa isa kong post sa personal diary (little blue book) at sa isang post ko dito na me kinalaman sa spaghetti… napanaginipan ko yung taong yon at ang spaghetti long time ago. Aba’t nagkatotoo nga. Yun nga lang, di siya yung nagluluto (kumpara sa panaginip ko) pero at least nakain ko parin yung spaghetti both sa panaginip at sa katotohanan recently. Hehe. Astig. Thanks, MASA! Ang lupit ng Dream courses natin… special thanks to Dean Madame Auring for your teachings… and not teaching. Whatever. Si JM parin ang top notch student. :)

Starting to Hate Firefox

It always experiences hang time. I’m deeply troubled. I was at 59% in my download of Hana Dan Korean Ep 3 when it hung and of course, I closed the program. What annoyed me most is that the file I was downloaded can’t be continued. Oh yeah, I remember. Megaupload has no continuation for broken downloads.

I was thinking of creating premium accounts someday to fulfill my hobbies’ needs. I envy those people who could use premium accounts or order rare goodies through e-Bay. Aw. What a life.

Anyway, I’m using Safari now. I’m waiting for the download to finish. Can’t waste time not downloading, can I?

The episode of Spongebob is so annoying today. It’s the Wishing Well scam. I’m waiting for Squidward to arrive. He’s the fun part here. I like his stoic annoying character. Okay, he’s here. Start the parteeh! :D

Yes Naman, Graduating na SIYA

Oo, inaamin kong inaabatan ko ang updates niya sa net. May pagka-semi-stalker niya ata ako. Net stalker lang naman (btw, hanggang Multiply account palang nya ang nahanap ko so far… so hindi rin siguro ako official stalker). Minsan napapaisip din ako kung bakit ko pa kelangang itago sa sarili ko na hinahanap-hanap pa rin kita. (yes naman, totoo yon!)

Mukha ka talagang kagalang-galang sa bago mong pics. Hehe. Ay, wala na halata na ko masyado. Bigla tuloy akong nag-alangan magpost nito, pero sorry Zel, adik ka sa kapopost ng January. Kakabagung-taon kasi e nagpost kaya tuluy-tuloy na yan. Ika nga, no stopping the action. Whatever.

Basta, good luck sa buhay mo, sa career mo, sa love life… na wala naman akong clue kung meron. I know you’ll make it through everything. Magaling ka eh. Siyempre, kaya nga gusto kita… noon. :) I’m saying these finally kasi I’m also saying goodbye to my interest of you for good (or worse?). Thanks sa inspiration nung last year. I enjoyed your company and all that… basta ingat ka palagi. Okay. Hehe.

This is what you call a net love letter. Makakarating to, panigurado. >_

REKLAMO

Napakainit. At pagkarating ko nga ng bahay e eto kagad ang inatupag ko—walang iba kundi si Hazel-PC-reborn. Magkagayunman, kailangan ko ring mag-aral kasi sa Monday na ang 151 exams. Lintik na 121 yan, ang daming readings! 410 ang inabot ng bayarin ko? What the… e madaya pa yung taga-Xerox. Biruin mo, isama ba naman pati yung TITLE PAGE ng libro e inindicate mo na nga na first chapter ang simula? Diba’t purong kadayaan yon? Nadagdagan tuloy ang badtrip ko.

Anyway, umalis muna tayo sa usaping nakakainis. Basta ang alam ko ang init init na as in summer na ba? Pero ayoko nito. Mas gusto ko na yung malamig na pinuputakte ako ng allergies ko kesa naman sa mainit at tumatagaktak ang pawis ko! Hmp. Puro reklamo ako ngayon kasi sumosobra na ang mga nakakainis na bagay sa paligid ko. Siguro pagkatapos ng 27 okay nanaman ang mood ko. Sana nga tapos na yung exam at presto, back to worry-free life ulit ako.

Basta sa Friday next week hindi ako uuwi ng bahay. May pupuntahan ako tsaka siya. Basta malayo. Malayung-malayo. Hehe.

Trinoma

TriNoma, TriNoMa, o anu pa man ang tamang pag caps sa mga letra nyan, e alam naman ng lahat na isa itong mall sa QC at katapat ng SM North. Sa tinagal-tagal ko sa campus ng Diliman e ngayon ko lang yan na-explore. Nung huli ko ngang punta e napilitan lang ako. Ang lapit lang nya mula sa NCPAG, one ride pa! 15 minutes and you’re there. Naisip ko tuloy, maganda nga kung dito na kami magpunta palagi (kahit siya ay mapapalayo). Maaliwalas din naman, except pag patak ng 5 pm. Massive na ang crowd.

Naligayahan naman ako dun. Hala. Pleasure ba direct translation nyan? Anyway, wag na nga nating pakialaman ang tamang pagtawag sa kung ano. Pero wag na rin namang bigyan ng ibang definition. Basta. Yun nalang yon, let it be. Teka, ano ang iniimply ko dun? Wag na rin! Hmn.

So naguguluhan nga pala ako sa nararamdaman ko. Ay siya, yun nga ang gusto kong i-discuss dito, at hindi ang mall o grammar o lexicon man yan. Built-up stories? Marami-rami na ko nyan. Pero sa gumagawa rin non siyempre ang balik non. Haha. Pakialam ko kung tama o mali ang sasabihin ko at malalaman niya? Inisip din ba niya ako?

Enough na nga. Basta. Mahirap na ring magsalita e.

Wrong Interpretation

So… nagcut nga ako kanina (part two ba ito?) at pumasok din naman ako sa 10 am class ko. Ayoko naman kasing ma-miss ang quiz—nahulaan este nasense ko na meron nga (at tama ako :D). Ayun, bagsak sa 108 pero 7 out of 10 naman sa 141. Ewan ko ba kung bat mas naaalala ko ang lessons sa Public Policy kaysa sa Philippine Administrative System.

Natapos ang 141 at sa amin na nga yung topic about Policy Evaluation (tama ba). Tas nun sabi ko desidido na kong pumasok sa 113. Okay. So baba kami. Sarado lib. Nagdadalawang-isip ako. Tas nagpapalibre siya. Sabi ko, “Diba dapat ikaw na manlibre? Tapos na kaya ako…”. Hinila nya yung bag ko at papunta na pala kaming Cafeteria.

Sabi nya, “Ngayon lang to kaya pumili ka na”. Sa isip ko, “Jackpot! Today is my lucky day!” at nakita ko ang spaghetti. “Yay spaghetti!” sinabi ko. Tas sabi nya, “Sige kumuha ka na. Pero sayang sa Sushi bar sana kita ililibre.”, “Okay lang, at least napamura ka pa,” “Sabagay,” Tapos nang nakuha ko na kumain kami at nagkwentuhan. Nauna nyang matapos yung siomai nya at ang bagal ko raw kumain. Tas kwento pa kwento hanggang sa naka dalawang Coke Zero na sya. Hinintay nya ko. Sabi ko, “Parang ayoko nang pumasok sa 113…”. Tumawa siya. “Yes!” sabi nya na parang nag-iinis. Successful siya sa goal nyang pag-cuttingin ako.

Bumalik kami sa lib. Napansin ko nakakalat pa mga classmates ko. Yung isa paalis, tinanong ko. “Isinet-up na yung room pero wala pa si Sir e, teka tatanungin ko dun.”. Di na siya bumalik. Nagkwentuhan muna kami. “Kala ko may pasok ka?” “Di na, pupunta nalang ako sa Malcolm hall.” Si Karl nagpakita. Nung papasok si Karl sa lib, sabi nya, “Kayo na ba?”. Feeling ko nagblush talaga ako dun… sabi ko nalang, “Ha?”. Tas nangiti si Karl, “Wala. Sige!” tas kumaway na rin ako. Tinanong ko siya. “Ano raw yon?” “Nagtaka siya kung bakit nandito pa ako.” sagot niya. Inisip ko, narining din niya kaya yung ispekulasyon ni Karl? Inignore lang namin, tas kwentuhan kami sa number of absences ko. “Apat na yun” binilang niya kung ilang beses na kaming nagkasama. “E pano yung di kita kasama?” tas napaisip kami.

“Wag ka na kasing pumasok, wala na yan.” “Teka! Tinatanong pa nya!” tinuro ko yung kaklase ko sa loob ng lib na kausap ung bantay. Tapos me umeskapo na yung si Ameng. “Ay kilala ko yun, kaklase natin sa 121.” “Pag may umalis pa, aalis na rin ako.” “Mauna ka na,” “Ayoko nga, gusto ko second ako.” Lumabas din yung kaklase ko at tipong paalis na. “Sige na nga, tara.” At sabay na kaming lumabas sa NCPAG.

“San tayo dadaan? Diba malayo yun?” tanong ko. “May alam akong shortcut.” sagot nya “Dadaan tayo sa may burol.” “Burol?” napatanong ulit ako. Tapos tumawid kami. Pinahinto na pala nya yung sasakyan e ang bagal kong tumawid. Natawa lang siya. Lakad kami. Kwento. Mabagal ako pero hinihintay naman niya akong makahabol. Picture ako ng picture. Me panaka-nakang reklamo, hanggang sa narating namin yung papunta nang Engg. Kwento. Jay Chou. Napatili ako. Nagulat siya. Tanong. Kwento…

Dumating na kami sa Malcolm. Maraming tao. Kaso nakaout sa shelf yung mga gusto naming libro. Tas napadaan na kami sa may Sunken. “Di pa ko nakakaapak dito,” Natawa siya. “Sige itutulak kita para makababa ka.” Napatawa nalang ako. “Ayoko nga.” Tapos, naglakad ako sa bagong bricked road sa gilid ng Sunken. Dun na siya malapit don sa babaan. “Halika na dito.” Edi lumapit na nga ako. Di ako lumakad sa may path. “Dito ka kasi, mas malalaglag ka diyan.” Bumaba ako. Tapos hinila niya ko. Naghilahan kami. Tawa. “Hay naku,” “Diba sabi ko di na kita itutulak, pero di ko sinabing di kita pwedeng hilahin.” “Nge” “Ako naman una mong madadaganan e, pero kung mainis ako ipapagulong kita.” Loko talaga siya. At bumaba na kami sa may hagdan.

“Yay!” Tuwang-tuwa ako. First time. Tapos sabi nya, “Ang daming tao sa tinatambayan ko.” “Saan?” Tinuro nya yung gilid sa tapat ng Educ. “Ay oo nga,” “Pero maganda dun.” “Talaga?” Di namin namalayan, nandun na kami. Umupo siya sa ugat ng isang puno dun. Nakatayo ako sa tabi niya. Umurong siya, tumabi na ako sa inuupuan niya. Kwento ulit. May iniisip pa kaming plano. Minsan pupunta kaming Trinoma, haha. Hanggang sa umambon na at 2:30 na. “Text mo nalang ako kung ano yung title nun.” Di ko kasi maalalang Basilisk lang pala yon. “Okay, dito na rin ako sasakay sa may Psych” “Kala ko dun ka?” “Mas matagal mapuno dun e.” Naglakad kami hanggang shed. Naglakad na siya palayo nung nahatid na nya ko dun. “Sige.” Tapos dun din pala sa PHAN ang klase nya. Nasulyapan ko siyang bumalik nung papunta na kong AS.

Anyway, mahaba nanaman tong post ko tungkol sa araw ko. Haaay makatulog na nga lang. Kakapagod maglakad!

Signos

Hmn. Siyempre alam mo na kung bakit me post ako e ang aga-aga.

Ayan. Kanina mga 7:35, nakasakay ako kagad ng jeep na Marikina. Tapos pagliko plng nun after Jenny's e traffic nang malala. Tinulugan ko nalang yon.

Nagising ako 1 hour after. Syet. 8:30 na! Late na ko. Hmn. Ayos nga lang pala. May balak nga rin pala akong mag-cut kasi di ko nagawa yung assignment. Easy lang. Tulog ulet. After 10 minutes, nasa kabilang side na kami ng Ligaya. Okay. Baba. Sakay ng next jeep. Baba sa Petron. Sakay ng Katipunan. Asar, loko talaga yung mga nangongolekta ng pamasahe don. FYI, mga manong, 7.50 po ang pamasahe. 7.50!! Ang daya-daya niyo. Palaging kulang ng .50 cents ang sukli nyo. Hmp. Kakarmahin din kayo.

Anyway, baba ako ng SC tas diretso sa bago kong paboritong Net Shop. Haha internet ng internet e sa bahay meron na ngang nonstop internet. Adik na ko. O sige na. Tas YM ako. Dalawa lang OL! Anu ba yan! Lahat sila... I'm mobile (with matching picture ng mobile phone/drawing sa kaliwang side nyan bago yung word na "I'm"). Hay naku. Buti nalang pwede ring kausapin yung isa sa dadalawang ol sa list ko.

May 394 messages daw akong di nabuksan sa Yahoo! Mail ng kenchan. Sige na nga, mabuksan na. Tutal, select all at "k" lang naman ang pipindutin ko. Read all. Pero ang katotohanan ay puro spam lang yun ng horoscopes. Accumulated. Aba't me dog horoscope, love... etc. Kelan ba ko nagsubscribe don?  Ok na nga rin. At least me ngsesend parin sa mail ko at activated parin kahit di ko ginagamit.

Haha nice talaga tong shop na to, me MSN sila na messenger. Yaaay. :)

Lovesick?

Okaaay… here I go again, neglecting school work. What am I supposed to do when I’m not in the mood for doing homework (of all things)?

I am almost done with my burning activity of video DVDs, and still I can’t stop thinking of something. I realize that I only want to be with you right now.

Darn it. It’s always coming to this point in time, I mean, I always feel so sick in love whenever it’s the start of the year.

This has happened to me for 3 years already (count this now as the 4th pala). When this time of year comes, I lose my head and so it goes… I give in to everything that goes around or between the both of us.

I cannot understand myself. When April comes, this all shall be done and so the cycle goes…

Stupid me. I don’t even know myself anymore.

Why am I addicted to you again like this?

Will I wait for it to pass? Or should I just give in and stop resisting?

Man, you’re so attractive. Swear. I keep myself from staying online because it pains me not to see you and to only talk through the PC. I don’t load up my mobile so I can’t send you my replies because it will only make me miss you more.

Darn it.

Blogthings...

http://www.blogthings.com/howareyouinlovequiz/

You take a while to fall in love with someone. Trust takes time.

You tend to take more than give in relationships.

You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.

You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.

You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

How Are You In Love?

Oppa, oppa, did you order jjajangmyun?

Ito ang translation ng lyrics ng aking bagong message alert tone. Nakuha ko yan sa Goong S, ang spin-off ng Goong. Anyway, ang bad news don e gagawan ng ABS-CBN ng Pinoy Version ang pinakapaborito kong Korean Drama… ang Goong o Princess Hours. :(

Anyway, speaking of ABS-CBN and Pinoy Teleseryes, salamat nga pala sa Ipmart seeders sa pagseed sa SMM or Sana Maulit Muli. Sa kasalukyan e siniseed ko na rin kahit walang activity. At binuburn ko na siya. Yay. Diba?

Happy na rin kahit pano. :)

Bored Days Flings

Fling - a brief casual relationship.

             -Wikipedia

I guess I better recognize some people who had been in my life when I strayed from someone else… wait. Is it really something like straying? No. I mean, duh. Whatever. Who’ll care? We do not remember each other now. Nor does he know about it.

So once in my life as a College gal, I tried going back to other chatrooms I haven’t visited for a long time. And I was, at that time also using BearShare as my downloader which has chat features. I did search for guys my age (I was 17 back then) and started chatting with them. These are parts of the things I did that I remember:

*Take note that no one of them knew my real name. Maybe a few of them, but mostly they call me Aya, my YM nick and also in Bearshare. All these are the ones I gave or got my number. There are lots of others that are just in my list but I didn’t really find interesting, that’s why they didn’t have my number.*

1. I met Jasper at Bearshare. He looked fine in his pic, so I talked to him and that. Okay. So we did come to the point of texting each other. His service provider was Smart. I had a Smart sim back then. He is an anime fan too. He also called our home. I heard he’s a 4th year high school dude from Antipolo. We continued talking till January. Ended too soon.

2. Next was the guy named Bryan. This one’s quite persistent. He does want me for a girlfriend, but I refused mainly because I do not know him and I have a principle of not hooking with guys that I just met randomly. Besides, I have a boyfriend that time. He still pursued that, I didn’t waver. Well, he even asked for a term like 100 days before I agree. Didn’t work for me. Ultimately, we stopped talking and texting.

3. Alex was next. Was he someone I knew from a friend? I don’t know. His providers are Sun and Globe. Somewhat persistent, but I turned him down earlier on. We just became friends and text pals. Did not last, though he still sends forwarded quotes. Okay. So he said things like he likes me. Whatever.

4. Gelo is another guy from Bearshare. He’s attractive, however he has Smart sim alone. Anyway, we texted as soon as I had the smart sim. He seems alright, but then… I thought again. He’s younger. So scrap it.

5. Joel is a friend of a friend’s cousin. I was wondering why that friend gave my Globe number knowing I’m in a relationship of that sort. Anyway, he’s quite a time killer and he asks many questions. I tried to answer almost all with honesty but of course it’s not good to be a tell-it-all. He has also a Sun Sim and we often talk with that. But it also ended the next year.

6. Jospeph is another guy who has smart sim. I’m not quite familiar with him, but I’m pretty sure I chatted with him at YM’s Metro Manila Barkada room (I don’t know what number). Ended quickly. Not quite interesting.

7. Light was his nickname, and I don’t even remember if he told me his real name. We met at Japanese Animation 3, and become instant buddies even before I loved Death Note. I thought he’s Kira Yamato, so I reacted and he then replied he’s from Death Note. Okay so there was instant connection. We’re accidentally both Freshmen in college and we had lots of commonalities. He got my number and we exchanged a few words at mobile. Did not last though.

8. His name is quite weird, but I guess it’s a nick. He was called Milez, and he’s from Bearshare. We talked a bit in chat, but mostly we’re mobile. He’s actually Globe. Another guy my age, we had some things that are common. But in the end, it wasn’t that useful.

9. Riou (Paulo) is someone I met during my 1st year high school days. We had lots in common that time—extreme addiction for anime songs, current situation… but we really had to know those when we’re in 4th year, after a brief YM chat (we’re already on each others’ lists). We had a lot of fun times talking in our Sun Sims, even texted using globe, and that happened till summer before College. I heard he got admitted at DLSU and is still there. Happy for him, but now we do not talk.

10. Tetsuya Akiziwa was his said name, and he told me he’s a half-Japanese. He’s the only guy I met with eyeball, and the only guy I talked to using internet phone. He’s actually hot, if I may judge his looks. Using a globe number, we texted to meet at BK Robinsons Galleria. I was at that time with my boyfriend. He knew I have one, but he still pursued me. Anyways, I didn’t agree to him other than the EB. We were watching Beowulf that time, and it was reserved seating, so he chose to sit at the seat beside me. We texted during the film (I guess because of the lighting of our mobiles my boyfriend noticed we knew each other). He gave me a ribbon pendant (an accessory,) and he even calls our house after that. Not that it gave him false hope when I met him, because I clearly told him that I can’t cheat on my boyfriend as he wants me to. A war between our ideals broke our communication and that was it.

11. Vincent Yang was a catchy person’s name in my list. I knew him also way back, maybe during 2nd year or 3rd year High School. We just had a long talk when we’re in college. He also studies at DLSU that time, and he had a Sun sim. We talk, text during class. I must admit that among all these guys, he’s the one I’m really attracted to. He looks pretty fine for a Chinito. Haha. But both of us are in relationships. We had thoughts of giving it up… Oh well, I had sins because of him. I better not tell it here then.

12. Zeal will be the last one I could remember. He’s someone from Bearshare that eventually was added to my YM. We also texted and he’s Globe. Nothing much that make him be remembered.

Right now, I have no connection in all of them except that they’re in my mobile phone (numbers) and in my YM list. There are others like them but didn’t get my number. That made my Friends list in YM go as high as 400. These guys are just to fill up the emptiness I felt about my relationship way back in 2006 and 2007. Well, I kinda got over the problems now. I bet there could only be a few guys that bug me now—like some seniors I had in college, former classmates, anime convention instant friends, people I meet at random places… even current classmates. They add some spice to my life, and my then boring relationship.

Anyway, upon admitting I had some connection with these people, I should say I didn’t have any firm relations with them. It’s just a sort of next level friendship, but wait… no romance involved.

You know, I might have not told in my blog honestly back then what actually bugs me and made me feel that relationships are worthless. It has something to do with my relationship. But now, I could say we got over those hurdles as if we’re starting anew. We suddenly went back to what we were before when we just became the so-called couple: chatting endlessly, texting, seeing each other more frequently, doing video calls… it was some sort of an overhaul. Maybe because we’re a bit more intimate when it comes to some things now. I guess I don’t need anyone to analyze it for me, unlike last sem. Somehow, I’m sure of something: I’m having the time of my life now that I enjoy it. I find things happening now very pleasing. It’s like I’m dreaming but I’m not. This better continue, or I might do something more stupid than before.

Yeah, I love this certain person now—I could practically say that—that’s why I can’t do anything as weird as what I did before now.

The Coke

Hmn. Pano ko kaya to idedescribe?

Basta. May nabili sila Mama na Coca Cola sa Robinsons Supermarket Pioneer na walang espiritu. Hehe. Sabihin na nating hindi nag-fizzle. Tapos parang hindi na siya acidic! Or baka at the first place ganun nga talaga. Hay. Sayang. Yun pa man din ang craving ko. Grr. Tapos di pa ko sinama sa simbahan kanina. Anyway, wala naman daw siya… Whatever.

Sundays

Ilang beses ko man wag isiping siya lang ang dahilan ng pagpunta ko e hindi ko mapigilan. Alam kong hindi naman talaga siya e. Siyempre, nakagawian ko na rin ang Sunday 9:30 Service sa simbahan at me religious side din naman ako. Kaya lang talaga, gaya nga ng sinabi ko, naiisip ko siya palagi. Pampanira ba ng solemnity ng Linggo ko ang pagkawala o presensya nya? Kasi naman yung taong yon, lulubog-lilitaw. Kulay palitaw. Ang puti niya kasi. Hehe.

Nung isang linggo, pinagtalunan pa namin ni mama kung siya nga yung lalaking nasa me front pew. Tas sabi ko, hindi, kasi medyo kayumanggi yung guy at di spiky yung buhok. Tapos ipinilit niya. Inobserbahan ko pa. Hindi talaga, kasi yung frame ng salamin (glasses) nung guy e makapal (sa katitingin ko ba naman dun sa original edi ko pa makabisa yung kaliit-liitang detalyeng yon!). Haha. Natawa nalang ako nung nalaman kong tama nga ako. Kabisado ko talaga ang looks nya.

Anyway, sana bukas nandon din siya kasi medyo naaapektuhan ng pagpapakita nya ang mood ko. Haha. Happy. :D

Hiram

Kanina, nagkaroon kami ng maikling pananatili sa SM Megamall dahil nanood nga kami ng sine at naglakwatsa, pati bumili rin ng kung anu-anong makakain. Pagkarating namin nahanap kagad namin yung mga kasama sa paggala, na di nagtagal e humiwalay rin sa amin. Tapos nun kinatagpo namin yung kaklase ko, at dun sa French Baker naganap ang aming transaksyon—ng mga anime DVDs. Ayos naman kasi nakuha ko yung case na may mga favoried oldies ko, gaya ng Evangelion. Natutuwa ako dahil pinahiram nya ako. :) Di man lang ako nakapagpasalamat.

Tapos ayun na nga nagkakilala na silang lahat at siyempre naipakita ko na rin sa kanya ang ilang katotohan sa mga naikuwento ko. Tapos nung nakalingap yung isa, nag-usap kami ni klasmeyt. Sabi nya, masyado raw mabait para sakin yung kasama ko. At tinawanan pa nya ako. Sabay amin din niyang hindi niya maintindihan ang pinanggagalingan nung mga hinain ko noon. Tapos, sabi pa niya, inaantagonize ko pa siya. Ngek. Sabi ko, di naman e. Sabay ayun bumalik siya na me dalang shiny coins na 5. Natuwa yung kaklase ko tas nagpalitan sila.

Supermarket ang susunod naming tinira. Ok naman. Maraming nabiling pang pagkain. Ang lamig don. Gamit na gamit yung jacket. Haha. Umalis din pagkatapos nun yung kaklase ko tapos kami diretso na sa sinehan. Maganda yung pelikulang Bride Wars. Ang ganda ng kwento, pati yung inasahan kong twist na si Emma ay makakatuluyan yung kapatid ni Liv. Hehe.

Ayos naman tong araw na to, basta kelangan ko lang naman sigurong mapanuod lahat ng nahiram ko bago matapos ang Marso. Kasi, bakasyon na. :)

Programs

Right now, I’m aimlessly installing programs in my PC. I’m also unaware on how much space is left on both my drives. The seeders have long gone, and here I am again with the very low speed of 7.0 kbps.

I’m in need of anime karaoke mp3s. Especially Kaze no machi he of Tsubasa RC. Grr. Can’t create a nice mix of a mono thingy. Whatever. This doesn’t concern me anymore.

Organization, Reorganization

Hindi ako apektado ng lessons namin sa PA 108 kaya ko nasulat ang post na ito. Pero… sige na nga. Parang ganun na nga rin. Naisipan ko kasi bigla na ayusin nanaman ang blog ko at isaayos ang mga categories. Siyempre, tatanggalin ang maling categ at papalitan ng mga tama sa posisyon. Nakakailang kasi para sakin kung may mga nasa Uncategorized. Kasi nga, ang point ko e gumawa nga ako ng iba’t ibang categs para me payak na classification yung mga posts ko. Minsan kasi sa sobrang excitement sa pagpopost e nakakalimutan ko nang iset ang category.

Hmn. Minsan talagang nakakabwisit ang friendster. Sa sobrang dami siguro ng gumagamit kaya ang bagal-bagal. Anyway, sa sobrang tuwa ko na rin sa dami ng posts ko sa Friendster e hindi ko na siya maiwan. Yahoo! At hindi na nga makita ang mga kanina lang ay Uncategorized. Successful ang pagsasaayos ko sa blog. Yehey!

Sige mamaya nalang muna at me babasahin pa akong isang importanteng bagay. Na siyempre, babasahin. :D

Cheese Stick

Kung di ba naman kinulit niya ako e di ako manlilibre. Oo. Kuripot na kung kuripot. At dito nga nag-umpisa ang Cheese Stick adventure namin kanina. Mainit ang araw sa paligid namin, at mainit din ang kalan ni Ate. Nakatambay kami sa harap ng stall na may payong na Technicolor. Makailangbeses akong napaso sa dila ng kesong tunaw. Sabi nga nya, kahit anong ihip ko sa lumpia wrapper e di lalamig yung nasa loob.

Round two ng cheese sticks, di ko na siya nilibre. Bumili rin kami ng plus pagkatapos. Tambay naman sa me puno. Tapos naghintay kami ng Katipunan. Ang tagal dumating ng jeep! Di rin pala dahil matagal. Walang space. Haha. Mga tatlo siguro yung nakaraan na di namin nasakyan. E ang ratio ng Katipunan jeep sa Ikot e 1:6. Tagal rin pala naming nagkwentuhan.

Sa susunod, ililibre kaya naman niya ako? Sana naman no! Pay back, hehe.

SHABUTARO? Again!

Tungkol nanaman sa saksakan ng harot na aso ang post na to. Kanina lang pinagtitripan ko siya. Tinatawag ko na iba ang tono ng boses ko. Tapos, ipipinid nya yung ulo nya sa kaliwa tas sa kanan. Kulit! Ang cute naman ng look nya. Hehe. Nakakaaliw na rin. Okay nang pantanggal ng bad mood ko ngayong gabi. :P

Tapos nun, nilabas ko si Butchik. Si Butchik yung isa sa mga pinakauna kong stuff toy. Aso siya na color brown at ang isa nyang tenga (yung kanan) e kinagat na nung isang aso ko nung gradeschool. Patawa nga yung mata ni Butchik, di rin pantay. Tapos idagdag mo pa yung pilas na tenga nya. Edi mas kinaiinisan siguro siya ni Shabutaro. Siguro iniisip nya to: “Pangit naman ng asong to!” hehe, as if super cute naman nya no?

Ako lang naman nagiisip non. Anyway, balik sa kwento. Yun na nga nilabas ko si Butchik. Tapos sinunggaban ni Shabutaro yung kanang rear paw! Hala, sige struggle siya pataas. Pilit nyang inaabot si Butchik. Ililipat ko ngayon, hahabulin nya parin! Wala siyang tigil. Hanggang sa napagod na siguro. Sumuko. Hehe. Uminom ng tubig. Ayan. Game over ba, Shabu-chan? Hehe. Talo ka kay Butchik. Belat.

Weekend

Just two days from my favorite days of the week. Those 3 days give me much comfort while recuperating from school stress (which I don’t think I really have) and give me time to finish my marathon and downloads. Oh well, during these days, I never fail to be online to everyone else in my social groups. No sleeping especially when so engrossed in talking and when having a serious watchathon (marathon of series). And again, sometimes online but not at my desk because some visitor’s there or I’m not yet home. Ah, weekends really save me from the murderous happenings in my weekday life.

So what happens to me during weekends? When I look at my desk as I go home, a lot of windows are scattered separately cascaded, booming at me—all blinking in orange lights. It will take me another hour to reply and choose whom I shall engage in a longer conversation. Or most likely, I’ll appear offline for good.

I spend a lot of time with some person I am with. Yep, straight 18 or so hours with him. We’re doing nothing but nothing. I’m not telling. Okay. Lots of stuff and TV watching and malling and movie-watching and chatting and talking and so on.

Okay. This weekend, we’re going out with a couple of friends. Haha. Issue: Sino manlilibre? Hehe. Not me! :P

Wakatte Ita Hazu

As I turned the shuffle on, most songs that I haven’t listened to for a long time suddenly play and gets my attention. This is one of the songs that was introduced to me by my classmate and close buddy when we were in 3rd year high school. Later on, it was one of my favorites, and even some of my friends loved it as well. This song has such nice lyrics about losing someone you love, and whatever is felt by that broken-hearted one. Here goes the English translation (care of animelyrics.com):

The laughing voices
of lovers passing by
makes me get all choked up.

Even though the rain has stopped
on this weekend afternoon,
I'm walking the streets all alone,
even though
I want to be with you.

I should have known this.
If I fell in love with you that much,
I would hurt just as much.

Even though I know it's heart-wrenching,
I keep thinking only of you,
even when
I can't see you.

Even though
I know I shouldn't think about
how I wish we could always be together,

Even now, the voice of my heart,
which I've tried to suppress,
seems to overflow
endlessly...
so much so that it hurts.

I should have known.
I just can't keep my love for you
inside, all to myself.

But now, it's a precious thought.
I believe in the truth
only I see,
and keep on loving you.

I should have known.
I just can't keep my love for you
inside, all to myself.

But now, it's a precious thought.
I believe in the truth only I see,
and keep on loving you.

SkyDrive

Iniisip ko kung tama bang ilagay ko ang music files ko sa web. Hmn. Lately kasi yung mga tao sa paligid ko navirus ang mga PC. Natakot tuloy ako bigla. Haha.

Dahil madalas naman na akong gumamit ng Windows Live stuff, naisip kong baka nga kailangan kong subukan yung SkyDrive nila. Pwedeng magupload dun hanggang 25 GB. Astig. Parang isang Blu-ray disc lang a. Haha. Kaso nga lang, gaano katagal? Kanina pa ko pero 5MB palang ang nauupload. Haay oo, tagal talaga.

Sana naman maayos yung file save nila tsaka madaling maaccess. Tapos, sana wala ring limitations sa time kung kelan mo siya tatanggalin—as in forever na dapat diyan yan (sana parang yung blog ko rin ganun).

Kakain muna ko ng Coleslaw. :D

Salang-sala sa Lamig

Grabe kanina. Habang palabas ako sa room 301, damang-dama ko nang mas malamig pa pala sa labas. Siguro dahil isang aircon lang ang binuksan ni Ma’am Cuaresma kaya medyo mainit pa ang temperatura sa room. Sa labas, di mo na makokontrol ang “nature’s air conditioning unit”.

Pagpasok namin ng mga kaklase ko sa 131 na kaklase ko ulit sa 108, ang ginaw. Aba’t binuksan pa ng mga tao sa loob ng non-aircon classroom ang mga ceiling fan! Nangingisay na kami ni Chuks. “Pwede bang patayin ko na tong fan na to?” tanong nya sakin. “Sige lang!” nanginginig kong sinabi. Dali-dali siyang sumingit sa mga paparating na tao para patayin na yung ceiling fan.

Sa bawat pag-ihip ng hangin sa pinto, may malamig na hanging papasok sa classroom. Balak ko sana ipasara yun. E kaso nakaharang na yung upuan ni Edwin. Wag na nga lang. Sige, kahit anong pose nalang para maging mainit. Hirap magconcentrate sa lesson. Iihip pa yung hangin. Lalong lalamig. Lalakas pa yan, o. Hala. QUIZ! Quiz ba?!

Biglaan yun. Lalong lumamig ang paligid ko. Haha. Wala yatang nakikinig e. Ayun. 10 items lang naman. Pasado parin. Kaso mababawasan siguro yan, tawa nalang. Hayan, sige. 11:25. Yes. 11:25 na. Sibat na. Ang lamig! Assignment? Ay oo, meron nga pala! Sige sa labas muna ako ng 201. Sulat. Lamiiig. Sulat pa.

Dumating si Albert. “Ano nga ba gagawin sa assignment diyan?” tanong nya. “Isusulat yung subprocess, kung formulation, implementation…” sagot ko. Ay! Di nya rin nagawa? Sige sulat lang.

Umalis na mga tao sa 201. Pasok kami. Lameeeeeeg. Aw. Mas malamig pa sa 308. Haha. Sige na nga, lesson nalang. Hmn. Konti tao. Nauubos na raw kami. 17 na nga lang kami e wala pa yung iba. Ay late lang pala… 12:50 na! Yesh. Cutting. Corn and Crab soup. Food. Heat. Mall…? LAMIG.

Brink

Random word for another post. Ginaganahan siguro akong magsulat, este magtype. Too bad wala nanaman akong load. Bwisit na Unli, ang bilis matapos. Grr.

At true, nasa kalingkingan na ako ng pagiging forced drop o singko sa dalawa kong subjects. Namely PA 113 and PA 151. Mahirap pumasok talaga kung ayaw mo ang paligid. Hindi naman sa inaalipusta ko ang dear classmates ko, wala lang. Tensionado kasi ako sa room, pano wala akong readings at hindi ako nagbasa. Matawag ka ba naman at walang mairecite. Iiwas nalang ako. Solusyon? Absences! Hehe.

Napagsasabihan na nga ako e. Biruin mo bibingo na ko. Haay oo nga pala. May sumpa ako na kada sem, me dalawa akong subject na manganganib. Nung first sem, first year, Math yun at English 11. Nung second sem, first year, Chem naman at Math ulet. Nung first sem, second year, Soc Sci 1 at Kom 1. Nung second sem, second year, yung Accounting 1 at Econ 11. Finally nung first sem, third year, yung Env Sci 1 at Pol Sc 11. Sa lahat ng yan, last sem lang isa ang talagang bumagsak—4.0. E ngayon kaya?

Nakikinita ko nang ang 2 subjects ko na nanganganib ay yang nabanggit ko. :| grim line. Hehe. Oh well, ganyan talaga. Life has ups, and downs. ^_^ smile nalang. Carry pa yan.

Some Stupid Thing I’ve Done

To start off, I’ll tell you about something that happened earlier. I suddenly remembered Eddie Gil while staring blankly at my anime tapes section just below our Cassette Tape Deck. It was the memories of his single entitled “Pelukang Itim” that flooded my mind. I was so fond of music, especially those that make me laugh out. When it was summer of 2004, I recorded that song. And later on, it was included on his debut album “Pinoy Idol?”. The connection? I became his fan before I bought that CD. Yeah, talk about stupidity.

Anyway, that time JM and I spent time talking a lot and hanging-out so much even though he’s studying at RHS already. One afternoon, we’ve researched him and there we found about one of his (Eddie Gil) addresses. So we had a little plan. That is, to send a fan letter professing our utmost support in his greatness as a singer and an actor (he has a movie!), and also, asking for a copy of his CD. God. We were so adamant and serious back then!

So what happened next is that the letter was composed, printed and placed in a white envelope—ready for mailing. As I’ve said, we were so serious about this, so we decided to actually send it through a mailing center beside PCA (my ex-school back then) and in front of RHS (JM’s high school that time). We eagerly spread the news to Kog and had her join us while we do the breath-taking embarrassing moment of our lives.

Guess what? She was laughing so hard that she can’t contain her amusement. We eventually did it, making the people at that mailing center puzzled. We have no clue that it’s actually not going to work. When JM and I decide to do something, we become overly optimistic of its outcome to the point of imagining a whole lot of things.

Oh yes, it was a failure. Not that the mail was returned, but probably it was not read by our idol. Too unfortunate for us. Oh well, we didn’t get to see his film either. In short, we haven’t accomplished a thing about our fanaticism. Then and there, the EG addiction flew away. As simple as that… :D

All About… *_*

Maingay. Magulo. Makulit. Para rin pala siyang yung average na lalaking nasa late teens or early twenties. Basta ganon. Hindi pala siya kasing tahimik sa unang tingin. Sobra palang makulit tong taong to. At tumatawa rin pala siya!

Sa classroom, bihira siyang umimik. Siguro emo to, yun ang una kong naisip. Marami siyang interes na hindi ko maintindihan at kinawi-weirdohan namin sa kanya. Nung una, hindi kami nag-uusap. Carry lang.

Tapos, nakuha ko ang atensyon nya dahil sa isang manga. Ayun. Mahilig din pala sa anime at manga ang mokong. Ayan, madalas na tuloy kaming nag-uusap bago mag-umpisa ang klase. Ayos rin naman pala siyang kausap. Hindi pala siya kasing scary na gaya ng iniisip ko. Okay, so medyo weird nga siya. Siguro katulad ko lang, kasi nga adik din… sa anime.

May mga panahong nagkakasama kami sa library para kumuha ng sandamakmak na readings. Sabi ko sa sarili ko, medyo didistansya muna ako sa kanya. Tutal, kakakilala lang namin e. Pero di ko yon nagawa. Siyempre, when you find another addict, you go together. Hehe. Parang ganun yong prinsipyo ko. So ayun kami at sabay nang kumain at nagkwentuhan, hanggang sa puntong masasabi mo nang magkaibigan na nga kami.

Kadalasan, mga tungkol sa buhay-buhay ang topic namin. Di naman ako gaanong naglilihim sa mga bagay sa buhay ko, kaya okay lang. Marami na rin kaming nalaman tungkol sa isa’t-isa. At ngayong sem, magkaklase nanaman kami. Mas madalas kaming nagkakasama kasi sinasamahan nya ako ng konti dahil nagpapalate siya. Tapos ako naman, nagka-cutting.

Kinukulit naman nya akong manlibre. Naku, di pwede sakin yon no. Kuripot nga ako. Hehe. Dinadramahan nya ako (siyempre fake!). Kinukulit. Naghahampasan na nga kami e. Pero kadalasan kung anu-ano rin trip namin. Ah basta, madami rin palang mapag-uusapan. Ayos naman. Sige lang, masaya rin e. :)

Absent-minded

Present pero wala sa sarili. Yun na nga ang tamang paglalarawan sa akin kapag nasa classroom na ako. Kaya madalas tuloy akong natatawag ng mga prof dahil bakas na bakas sa mukha ko ang paglutang ng imahinasyon at utak ko. Ayun, minsan tampulan na tuloy ako ng tukso ng mga kapwa ko estudyante—lalo na yung mga malalapit sakin.

Basta. Nakakahiya na rin minsan yung napagsasabihan ka o pinariringgan ka. Hehe. Sabagay kelangan maamin mo din sa sarili ang katamaran at siyempre ang hindi pakikinig sa klase. Oo na, hehe. Grabe. Awat na nga muna. Kating-kati na ko dito…

Anong kinalaman? Basta. :)

Siya Naman

Di ko siya maintindihan. Kadalasan, nagsasawa na ako sa sinasabi niya. At oo, minsan din pinipilit ko na huwag nang seryosohin kung ano man yon. Kasi nga, baka sa huli pagsisihan ko rin. Hindi ko rin naman siya masisi kung totoo ngang ganon. Pero habang tumatagal, mas lalo akong naguguluhan sa kanya. Parang may mga pagkakataong gusto ko nalang tumigil at sigawan siya sa harap ng madla: “Hoy, kuya, ano ba talaga ang gusto mo sakin?”.

Sa dami na ng nagawa naming bagay nang magkasabwat eh hindi ko na matukoy ang nagugustuhan sa napipilitan at napipigilan. Alin nga kaya doon ang totoong saloobin ko? Mabait pa rin naman siya kasi bago may mangyaring kung ano e tinatanong naman niya ako. Siguro, pag nagugustuhan ko, natutuwa siya dahil maaaring magaling siya. Pag napipilitan, nahahalata naman niya ngunit ayaw naman niyang tigilan o titigilan niya rin paglaon. E pag napipigilan, alam kaya niya? Minsan naman mukhang oo tama nga yon. Sige, ayos na nga lang sakin yon. Ikinatutuwa rin naman niya e.

Magulo ang sistema naming dalawa kasi me mga panahon talagang wala kaming pakialam sa isa’t-isa. Napapaisip nalang ako, “Ano na kaya?” o kadalasan pati nangyayari sa kanya inoobserbahan ko nalang mula sa malayo. Kadalasan, kaswal siyang nagtatanong sa akin gamit ang SMS kung libre ako, o kaya naman isang offline message ang iiwan niya. Nagtataka man din ako, e hindi ko talaga alam kung bakit mabilis akong mapapayag na sumama. Siguro nga e gusto ko siyang makita, o bored lang din talaga ako.

Mga dalawang beses ko palang siguro na niyaya siyang lumabas. Kasi kahit anong mangyari, nasa protocol ko ang hindi magyaya. Kasi nga, inaalala kong ang nagyayaya, nanlilibre. Hehe. May ilan namang pagkakataong hindi ko sinasadyang yayain siya. Parang pahiwatig lang. Di ko rin inasahan, pero sige yan na yun e. At ang ayaw ko siguro ay yung ipinipilit niya ang sarili niya. Siguro, kakaunti palang naman yon.

Kung may pinakagusto man ako sa kanya e yung pagiging maagap at maaga sa napagkasunduang oras. Di rin siya nagsasawang maghintay sakin kasi late ako palagi. Baka nga, kahit papano, e totoo ngang gusto niya akong makasama. Kasi nga di ko yon pinapaniwalaan. Di ko rin naman masisisi ang sarili ko sa pagiging paranoid. Basta lang na may mga bagay na me tinatawag na hunch o gut feeling. Take note, naniniwala ako talaga don. Hindi pa kasi ako pumalya sa ganun e.

At iyon nga ang dahilan ng hindi ko pagpapaniwala sa mga madalas niyang sabihin. Ang ending non? Sinusubukan ko siyang hindi seryosohin sa lahat ng bagay. Magawa o nagawa ko man iyon e hindi ko na alam kung ano ang reaksyon nya. Minsan pinapakita niyang hindi siya natutuwa, minsan halatang ayaw niyang ipakita pero oo mukha ngang nasasaktan ko na siya, at kadalasan, pabiro niyang sinasabi na hindi siya natutuwa. Alin man don ay hindi ko nalang iniintindi.

Napakarami na ng pangakong binitawan ko sa kanya. Ewan ko nalang kung matupad ko yon. Sabi ko nga sa kanya e, “Hindi ko naman ginagawa sa’yo yan a” o kaya’y “Hindi naman kita tinatanong ng ganon.”. Bakit kasi hindi ko rin maamin sa sarili ko ang ilang katotohanan? Siguro, tama nga ang isang taong kakilala kong nagsabing ako ay isang Denial Queen. Ayoko nalang sigurong intindihin ang sarili ko kasi naman baka kung ano pa ang mapag-alaman kong hindi ko matanggap. Alam niyo kasi, posible talagang kagalitan natin ang sarili natin. Malamang, isa na ako sa mga taong ganon… iyon ay kung umamin na ako sa kamunduhang matagal na niyang ipinipilit sa utak ko.

Ipagpapatuloy ko pa kaya ang mga gawaing hindi ko sigurado? Di naman kaya sa huli e malaglag lang ako?

Takot talaga ako. Pero hindi ko nalang pinapahalata. Alam mo na, yung notion ng tao sayong ikaw ay ‘cool, calm and collected’ at siyempre andun parin ang pagiging childish. Bahala na siya, kasi di ko inilalagay sa kanya ang happy ending ko. Ang happy ending ko ay fleeting somewhere, at tinatapat ko naman siya dun e. Wala nalang sanang sisihan at regret sa bandang huli. Sana pati ako huwag mahulog nang todo. Kumbaga, guinea pig lang yan. Oo, isa itong malaking eksperimento ng curiosity. Nawa’y walang mangyaring kung ano man…

Kwentong Barbero

Ewan ko kung ano nga ba ang talagang ibig sabihin nito, pero siguro naman nalalapit sa kwento rin ng kaibigan mong di naman totoo. At ang ibig sabihin lang nito ay isa ‘yong kasinungalingan. Sabagay, pwede rin namang mangyari o nangyari, pero gaya nga ng isang kwentong barbero (kung tama ang pagkakaintindi ko) e di naman talaga yon nangyari. Matagal ko na ring alam na apektado masyado ang taong ito sa mga bagay na nasa paligid niya o mga pangyayaring nagaganap sa mundo. Mapa-pelikula man o kanta o ano pa man, nakakagawa at nakakabuo siya ng kwentong barbero o mga serye ng kasinungalingang halata mo namang galing lang sa imahinasyon nya at sa isang nasabing pelikula or pangyayari. Itulad na natin dito ang makailang-ulit niyang pagsakay sa mga tirada kong peke naman at puro imbento lang din na serye ng kwento. Patok sa kanya to. At iniisip niya ring tama siya sa mga hula niya—kung saan oo nalang ako ng oo tungkol sa mga iyon, para magmukhang makatotohanan pa.

Minsan naisip ko sukdulan na rin ang panggagantso ko sa kanya pero wala akong magagawa, para naman maisip niya ring magresearch o manaliksik sa katotohanan ng buhay ko at ng kung sinong imbentong nilalang—na wala talagang ganun. O siguro nang matuto rin siyang umayos at tigilan na ang mga pantasya niya sa buhay. Oo, ako man ay malakas mangarap at mag-imagine gaya niya, pero alam ko ang aking hangganan. Ngayon nga ay sinabi kong ibinaon ko na sila—ang mga hindi totoong 'iniibig’ ko na nakilala ko san mang lupalop ng Pinas. Hindi pa ba niya nahahalata ang mga detalye ay mali at hindi ba siya napag-iisip man lang? Kung mahal ko nga ang taong iyon (na hindi naman totoo) edi sana hindi ko rin minahal ang taong mahal ko ngayon. O kaya’y hindi naman kaya ako ang napaiikot niya at patuloy rin akong nagiimbento ng karagdagang kasinungalingan ayon sa kagustuhan nya? Ano man yon sa mga nabanggit, sigurado akong ninanais din niyang makarinig ng mga katulad ng kasinungalingan niya. Problema nga lang, ako, tumigil na at talagang nakaranas na ng maraming bagay na hindi niya alam—at siya, ewan ko lang.

Nabulabog ako sa huling pahayag niya. Inaasahan ko na rin naman na ganoon nga yon. Nag-umpisa yan sa pagkokonekta nya sa mga bagay sa paligid—mapa-commercial man o TV show. Hanggang sa eto na nga ang isang pelikulang banyaga na umamin siya tungkol sa pagiging bi. Oo, alam ko na yon e. Halata nanamang feel na feel nya yung kwento ng pelikula. Sabagay, sa mga nabanggit naman niya e me katotohanan: yung tungkol sa lalaking kursunada nya. Totoo yon. Pero yung pagiging katulad umano sa pelikulang yon, ay naku. Heto nanaman. Minsan nga rin iniisip ko kung ano talaga ang totoo sa mga nagaganap sa buhay niya. At ngayon ngang gabi makalipas ang mga naobserbahan kong stat message nya at offline messages, nahalata ko nang me paparating nanaman na kasinungalingan. Siyempre, sabayan natin ng bago niyang kinahumalingang pelikulang Koreano. Ayun, nabuo nanaman ang isang maramdaming kwento. Ayoko nang makinig sana, pero siyempre intriga na rin ako sa kahihinatnan ngayon. At iyon nga, baseng-base sa pelikula pero siyempre me reality twist. This time, talagang nalabuan ako lalo na’t me kinalaman sa bata at one night stand ang kwento. Naku po. Siya? Ah basta.

Sa pakiwari ko ganun nga yon. Isa nanamang ala-panaginip na naging realidad. Sawa na nga ako. Makikinig pa ba ako? Hindi na ko naninibago. Matagal na yan e. Sige na nga. Mapagbigyan na lang siya. Nakakaawa naman. Sana, pag tanda pa niya e maisip niyang walang patutunguhan ang lahat ng iyon. At para sakin, di ko na paniniwalaan ang kahit ano pa mang halata namang peke. Anyway, sa huli, siya naman ang talo dahil nagsayang lang siya ng effort sa kung ano mang kwentong di ko naman binili. Hay bahala na nga siya. Ayoko nalang magsalita sa kanya. Pero nakakainis din talaga e. Sobra na…

Windows Live Messenger

Hello screencap!

Okay, so this is the Windows Live Messenger, and I’m going to introduce this to those who do not know it yet. :)

The screen cap cannot be enlarged because of blog layout so sorry if it’s small.

Anyway, it has a nice feature of personalization. It has an easy interface and it’s so user-friendly. That’s why I’m switching to this already.



 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

The coolest thing here so far is the “Create your own emoticons” thing. I created Sasuke .gifs to emoticons, and here’s a sample:



 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

If you can notice, there’s a Sasuke-kun there in the text box. :D

I made that. And I can send it to my contact and he can download it and use it for himself. :)

 

That would be all for now. Haha. Bummed. =)

Happy Birthday… Birthday.

Right. Today is his birthday, and it’s pertaining to: boyfriend, YKW, YKH, Honey, Hani, ANPM, Chorva, Garci, Jose, JS, ****** (haha concealed!), and so on… whatever me and my friends call him or me alone. Anyway, that’s too trivial, so let me just dedicate this post to him—since, yea, it’s his birthday. 20th birthday to be exact.

I know this is a bit awkward to post since I haven’t mentioned him regularly on common all-about-life posts yet I’m always with him for the longest time—breaking records on YMs, telephone conversations and of course the grand “Longest stay in our house award” (I grant this to visitors who exceed the records- previous winner was JM, or was it Roy?).

So what about him now?

Hmn. Let me just talk about some things I know about him right now:

1. He studies Japanese Language- scary. I never thought he’d do that. I was always the one interested in that stuff… until now. He’s somewhat the next-level freak that I am when it comes to Japan.

2. He’s 20- no longer a teen, haha. I wonder what else can he do because he’s older. Dang, I wish I am 21 already. *chuckles*

3. He’s into PC games- not that this fact has changed for three years?

4. Recently, he had this “wisdom tooth”- ooh, sounds interesting, but it appears that he’s soo in pain because of that. Yeah right, I even saw it. Haha.

5. He’s an alien- did he just admit that some time ago? He lives in Habitopia—somewhere in another galaxy, in an island called Habilandia (am I right?). Sure thing, that’s make-believe.

6. He is weirder than me- that’s in some special cases. These include: food choices and mixes and other stuff.

7. He’s watching Discovery Channel and National Geographic- that’s most of the time, since he takes the remote control from me and switches to that when I should be watching Rukawa on Slam Dunk! (gah!)

8. He imposes- there have been lots of his requests or should I say rules about some things. Hmn, I won’t mention them.

9. …and so on.

(Actually, I’m planning to make these 20, but I couldn’t remember a lot today. :D)

Haha, great. Just great. ;)

Confessions of a gg-holic

While it may be true that my interest for Western dramas and guys is quite questionable, this time, it’s true. I’m interested in The CW’s teen drama series Gossip Girl, based on the book with the same title.

I don’t know if it’s really my College classmates and friends or C-chan (now called “C”) or myself that really got me into reading and watching it at the same time. It was just like one summer ago that I heard some UP people’s addiction to it. I often even wondered what got them into watching it. Oh well, so much for that.

Right now, I avidly download every single episode of its Season 2, and admittedly, it got me hooked. It was such an intriguing series, although so much difference could be noted when it comes to the book itself. Anyway, I think it’s better in the series since it’s more lighter and the fact that watching is so much easier than reading. Besides, you get to see their on-screen equivalents pretty and that.

I wonder whether I’ll drop this enthusiasm for gg someday. Who actually knows that?

Dramatic

I really have no intention of creating a post today with this title. I just loved the song Dramatic by Yuki. To begin this post, I would like to say that I don’t really mind now how many of my posts will be posted. Whatever.

There are approximately 7 days and something hours before my downloads will be complete. Unfortunately, I’m leaving the house tomorrow for the whole aka entire day. How then could I finish this download and start the next one?

I don’t care about My Girl Pinoy Version since I have a LQ copy of it. What matters is SMM, since I haven’t watched its first eps and also it’s got an international franchise. It’s quite a worthwhile download.

So then, I better stop wasting bandwidth on something else.

Shall I quit YM and Windows Messenger? I don’t know.

I don’t know has been my overused favorite phrase.

Thinking

Can’t seem to place another good title for this post. I’ve been writing nonstop today here (well, there are stops). I have a goal of completing at least 200 posts till the New Year’s but then I didn’t quite make it. Anyway, I might fail on tomorrows 131 exam. I have no idea why I don’t seem to be interested in studying right now. Was I thinking of something else that I want to do so it hindered my studying mode? Or did I really lack the motivation to pursue my studies?

Honestly up to now I don’t know yet if I wanted Public Administration as my final course in life. I always wanted to pursue a writing career or something in the broadcast communication, or maybe the best I could think that I madly like is about computers. But unfortunately for me I wasn’t accepted because of the sad marks and red ones I had in my first two years. It’s my entire fault anyway.

I know that I want to be someone proficient in the Japanese language because of my anime fanaticism. I became an otaku at an early age, and from the time I wanted to sing anime songs all day and the time that I wanna read and understand its lyrics, I have built the interest within me.

Too bad I can’t pursue some studies of it since it doesn’t seem important to my incoming career as a public servant of the Philippine people. Haha.

Some Screen Caps

While it’s true that I’ve finished the entire Sakura Taisen video releases in anime, I really still can’t get over the missing links on the Sakura Taisen pairings—especially my favorite and the most obvious one: SakuraXOhgami.

Let me share some of the scenes of their first meeting:



 

 

 

 

 

 

These scenes were from the anime. Here’s from the OVAs:

More SakuraXOhgami: